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Dated : Thursday, December 31, 2009 The masked man wrote, Last night...Wasn't planning to go anywhere...But my dad asked my sis to tag along to watch some fireworks so i had to tag along too...SOOO bored..Went to marina barrage but couldnt enter at gatecrasher...FUCKING EX TICKETS!! At 12 the fireworks started but couldnt get a nice view due to the damn casino blocking the way...Haha...But as i was walking back to my dad's truck,there was a lot of groups of people like standing there and shouting happy new year...Hahaha..Shook hands with each group like as if I was frens with them..ahah...I was bored to my wits end so i called my frens who were at marina bay to come and fetch me...Azmi came with Sasha,Kim,Terri,Cheng and Zak..WOOHOO!All were riding bikes..I felt out sia that i was the only one bike-less...But hey!Gotto ride Terri's cute pink vespa..Went to Siloso...K bby.I didnt lie to you...I was planning to sit at home but since my dad brought me out I went...I was bored out of my wits..Hope you dont think Im lying...kk..Back to yestd...Went to siloso..Met Ram,Jas,Pat and Sam...They were already settled down with 5 bottles of Vodka...Hahaha..But I didnt drink a drop..I SWEAR!Chilled and slacked when fey texted to meet at 7-11 but i was damn lazy...So i made up excuses to meet him cos the guys would see me and say like I was bad not celebrating with them and stuffs..At 3 Kim wanted to go back so I tagged along cos her house was on the way to mine..Hee!Got to ride a vespa sia!Woohoo..Then i went home to sleep...YEAH! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : The masked man wrote, Just came back home but im damn sleepy so I wont update my blog tdae..Tmrw when I wake up,Ill update...Aite... To all the people I love and dont... MERRY MERRY NEW YEAR! and for the first time in 2010:Good Nite! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Wednesday, December 30, 2009 The masked man wrote, Tdae I went to my lil sis's school to help her buy books and stuf..Damn bookshop!So fucking slow sia...A lot of minahs...Irritating...Keep looking at me -.- I soo regretted on wearing nice...Should have just used boxers and singlet?WAIT!They'll look at me more!NOO!!Haha...And i saw this one girl...Looked sooo like my first ever crush...That was like when I was pri 1-3..Haha...But that couldnt be her cos that girl was onli sec 3...Haha...But I couldnt stop looking at her...I was amazed at her similarity..But the one diff was a mole the size if Texas i her cheek...Lol...Not that big literally but it was big...Nono..Huge!Hahaha...Then when back home with nothing to do...So I finished my "God's not listening" and created a new one called "My life"...Hehe! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Tuesday, December 29, 2009 The masked man wrote, Tday..I did something I'm ashamed of...ARGH!I'm soo fucking stressed..Can't find a job...Got a low GPA score...Can't confirm getting into higher nitec...most porbably going to ns soon...That means less time with baby and that might lead to her being bored with me and breaking up with me..Lesser time with my family...Lesser time with my frens.that i dont mind that much cos i know i have to find a new bunch of frens..Kam is doing the right thing i guess..2009 isnt a year i would be proud of..Soo im not celebrating it...Damn...Right now...I fucking hate my life...Not worth a life living...Damn...FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!Some more next year i have to spend lesses time with baby as she has to concentrate on her studies...I guess that me without her....It sux...But its for her studies...I dont want her to walk the path im walking rite now..Anybody got any job openings PLEASE cntct me..Got to do something!haish!Now..Even drinking cant destress me...What is wrong with me...What am i becoming...Haish...And baby's bdae is coming up and im strapped outta cash...I have to buy her something...Or i would feel soo different...Cos all those girls that werent soo special got presents and baby being the greatest thing that happened to me..She must get something from me...And kinn is not understanding my reasons twards her and afiq...Haish..Im just trying to lookout for her like a brother would for his lil sis...My life's messed up rite now...GOD!HEAR MY PLEAS! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Sunday, December 27, 2009 The masked man wrote, SADNESS,DESPAIR,SILENCE,SOLITUDE Today i am soo fucking clueless why i was having mood swings...I seriously felt that i was all alone at the corner of the globe.I was fucking angry.I couldnt udstd my behaviour.This was a first for me.I was so sad yet soo angry.Everything was pushed away like a lil dustbunny.So i thought by going to resv might cool me down but it didnt.Damn it.There was 5 guys at the resv,staring at me.Fucked up by me!I think they must've known me somehow cos one of them said "paiseh ah dolphin"...Well...I'm sorry for punching that guy's face.His face was asking for it.The others was talking in a relaxing manner while he was staring me up n down.SORRY!I wasnt myself.I'm turning into the old me.STOP IT DOLPHIN!I wanna live for something.I wanna be loved.I wanna be needed.I was feeling the DIRECT opposite.Haish.Why am i feeling this way?Why is the hate in me burning?I dont want this.My friends,please help me. :'( )': The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Saturday, December 26, 2009 The masked man wrote, Last night...I had a dream...What might be the worst dream I've had..What others might not want to be dreaming about...K..Here goes... I was getting ready at home cos i was gonna meet baby...I was all dressed up as i think we were gg to town and watch a movie...I was on the bus otw to meet her when I got a msg...She texted me that she was not feeling well so i decided to postpone the outing and she replied something like this."NO!I WANNA MEET YOU!I DON'T CARE!"So i was happy that i could finally meet her after 2 weeks of missing her...When I reached the place(idk where that place is),I saw an ambulance rushing off to somewhere..Thinking nothing of it,I continue walking to the meet-up point...Suddenly someone called me..Saying that baby had passed away..I thought it was a prank but realised that the num was baby's... My heart immediately sank.My hands starten to loosen and my phone dropped.I was too shocked to do anything.Stunned and trying to make what sense of what just happened. Crying,Suddenly I was at school.It seemed that it was tomorrow already.Wahab came to me and asked,"Bro,are you okay?What happened?Tell me.."I replied,"M baby's now an angel."The i immediately leaned on wahab and cried my eyes out.Then he was coaxing me and stuffs so i explained the situation.I hadnt met my baby for 2 weeks and the feeling of wanting to meet her grew so HUGE.When i finally could meet her,this happened.Then I was pissed off at god.Asking him that why couldnt i meet her first?Why couldnt i at least hear her voice,see her smile and feel her touch just ONE LAST FREAKING TIME?!\ Then... I woke up....That was about 5 in the morning.I realised that my cheeks were all wet and my eyes were dripping tears..I hope this nvr happens.There's this saying:If the person is lost,then we know how much that person makes an impact in ur life.Baby,YOU MAKE A HUGE IMPACT IN MY LIFE!Now I TRULY know how much i love u.Hope this nightmare stays away and never come true. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : The masked man wrote, Ive been really down tdae...I dont know why but i feel totally crappy..1stly...My mom wakes me up at 10 when i went to sleep at 5..Not enough sleep = a very grumpy me...2ndly...my gf is out so i cant text her...I dont know whether she realised that i topped up her ppd.3rdly...Nobody slacked tdae so i was fucking bored...4thly...Fathia just broke up with her bf...So fathia's exbf...Here's me showng u the double digits!FUCK U!U think my lil sis is a toy?No FUCKING way!You motherfucking asshole!You mess with a bunny,A BIGGER bunny comes and messes with u...Fuck u dousche bag!U have no idea what she's gg thru...I do..Been there.Done that.. I wanna scold u but my heart doesnt allow me to...I love u too much to hurt or dis u in anyway.I hope im doing it correctly... Miss ya bby!Cant wait to meet ya!Muackz! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Friday, December 25, 2009 The masked man wrote,  Tdae..I just found out how i did for my nitec...It sucks man...i got 1.76 for my gpa...I can't help but cry...I seriously at that time there n then wanted to go down and drink as much as i can..FTW!I dont give a shit anymore...I seriously dun give a fuck about the world...I jsut need a someone to cry rite now...IM SOO STUPID!!I feel like banging my head on the wall till it bleeds rite now...If there's somebody who hates me outside and is reading this...Please..BE my guest...Make my day...End my suffering...But that would make me a selfish asshole leaving all the wonderful people that loves me...Haish...Now i have to break the news to my mum.I dun wanna dissapoint her...She's been thorugh enough...What should i doo?Im in such a state rite now that I can do anything just to put all my anger in one place...There's a bunch of MATs at the playgrounf facing my blog..Damn noisy...haha...I know what to doo...Wait2...MAybe i should call some of my frens...i can't possibly take all of them on...8 against one?Who's shitting me?Well... Thats all i can say for rite now...Time to whack some irritating asses! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Thursday, December 24, 2009 The masked man wrote, URGH!!!!I'm soo bored!Its been 1 month since my hols started and FUCK!All i could do was sit and rot at home!Couldnt secure a job..Damn...Maybe i was ......i d k....Tdae i woke up and my bro was using my lappy...Luckily he said good morning or else i wouldve have blast him for using my lappy...Last night,talked with eyza...Talked about us and all...the "kids"..Well...We have the same opinion.They suck...Haha...I miss baby!When can i see her?When can i meet her?When can i hug her?when can i kiss her?When can i .....erm....i'm all out.Hahaha...Miss ya baby!love u loads! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Tuesday, December 22, 2009 The masked man wrote, Was suppose to meet baby tade but didnt cos dumb ol me had to wake up late...i dont know why but suddenly feel that im losing her.I can't push this feeling away...Days have past seem i since the last time i saw u,hugged and kiss u..As the days go by,u seem to be dissapearing into the shadows.Why does it seem so?Am i starting to bore you?Is the love disintergrating?I swear that my love for u will and has never stayed the same ever so growing bigger and bigger.But i been feeling a slight slight boredom in ur voice yestd otf.What is happening to me?Am i changing to become someone u dont like? If all of this isn't true,then i'm sorry.I just feel down.='( The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Monday, December 21, 2009 The masked man wrote, These past few days...I've been really angry at almost everybody...My mom,my dad,my friends.Almost every fucking person...Except at my girl...I really wanted to meet her tdae but i couldnt put her at risk again..So i thought maybe she could come here but she was too sleepy and tired..The minute i read the text she sent me that she was tired,I cried..Not that i'm a crybaby or stuffs but i really thought that i could be relax and be happy since i don't know when.. But hey...I have to be reasonable...She has to study for her exams..Haish...Dumb school.. I miss her so much...I can stand being angry...Bt i can't help not seeing the person i love the most when i miss her like fuck...When my life seems to be going up,its actually going down from a different perpective.I can't keep this up..I've not been sleeping properly for the past two days...I know she'll be reading this and will be scolding me for lying to her but i don't have the guts to tell her some stuffs in fear of her being disappointed...Haish... If god thinks i'm being a bad person or son...then just take me..I don't think anyone will notice my disappearance..They'll just continue their lives...Haish...Why am i feeling this way?Why am i so angry yet so sad?Why do i feel so useless?Why?!WHY?! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Sunday, December 20, 2009 The masked man wrote, Yestd...Went to kinn chalet...Went there with kam and fey...Its was at dwntwn...Met kinn,mus and eyza there...as soon as we sat down...I grabbed aplate and woosh! went to eat... BIt by bit the rest came...Went to river fire2 which was at about 1...The usual irritating assholes were noisy...my guess is they trying to drown their fears by doing that...So i n farhan went first...followed by those cowards...Was a bit scared but hey...The others were irritating..Walked in darkness...Not total darkness...Was able to see a bit...Oh yeah..."Mr charcoal"-my nick for him, was there...I dont even know who the fuck he is...He acts as if he's soo cool and stuff...kay afiq...Imgine me right in front of u shoving the middle finger right up ur face...haha...and somebody's dumb enough to be with him...ahahaha...dumb metal mouth!I know she'll be reading this soo read on...He's using you u dumbshit!He keeps on boasting that he's just using u for $$$ u wise crack!Damn I'm soo pissed at u...Thats also the reason why i was cold twards u at the chalet...I can't keep still while i know for a fact that he's using u...Bt i wont and still shall not say a thing cos my past talks to u were in vain...u dun listen to me so why the hell should i waste my fucking breath?URGH!Seriously....Enough a bout her Went to p.ris int at about 7am the next dae with only me,fey,agus,mad,ziq and loq...reached there and they decided to play some tag...I sat itout cos my feet was killing me...Damn funny sia...Ziq was chasing mad...Mad was running away from haziq while laughing and looking at haziq who wasbehind him...AND MAD CRASHED FLAT ONTO A WALL!hahahah!I was laughing like fuck!HahAHA!Oh and erm...farhan fell down as it was muddy.That was funny too...Hahaha!Then went back to bedok and slacked for a couple then proceeded home... Reached home and found out that i had to help my auntie carry her stuffs to her new house...WTF!?!?!?!to add hthe misery..this is the freaking aunt that likes to scold me and my siblings when we did the littlest human error...Fuck!and i'm still pissed at her for reprimanding my sis that dae...I swear to god that if my uncles and other aunts werent there...I would have knocked the daylight outta her there and then...Fucking sumo!haha...but i decided to skip that and just go to sleep...FUCK YOU AUNT!hahah... Here's some pics i took at the chalet...     The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Friday, December 18, 2009 The masked man wrote, Few hours agoo(at 11.30pm),I went with my family to celebrate my bro's n results to this coffee shop in geylang...idk where...But i ate a loadful..Was texting baby when she fell asleep.Hahaha.. Dad sent us home...Was damn sleepy and damn full...haha...I went to bed after reaching home as the bed suddenly felt like the best place to be at...Turned,rolled around,somersaulted...haha...Still couldnt get to sleep..So here i am posting this at 6.30am cos my eyes just wont go sleepy...haha...Idk why...Wee...AND A BIG GOOD MORNING TO ALL THEM NOISY BIRDS CHIRPING!FUCKING GO TO SLEEP!IRRITATING CREATURES! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Thursday, December 17, 2009 The masked man wrote,  I've been into screamo songs or whatever is it you guys call it since i listened to these band... I love this band!They're what my definition of music would be...Since i listened to the song "violent kiss"...damn!Now i cant stop from wanting more..Now i have their whole 2 albums..Heee! I LOVE EYES SET TO KILL!  Pssst...Nowadays,I feel like I wanna cut my hair...But what style?Hmm.... I know...I wanna cut my hair like the lead vocal of eyes set to kill...Hmm May i?shall i?Will it suit me?Hmm...Im not quite sure... I AM A VERY2 PROUD BORTHER TDAE!! MY LIL BRO GOT 12 FOR HIS N!LIKE OMG! KUDOS BRO! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Wednesday, December 16, 2009 The masked man wrote, Just came back from hans river which is at simei...Just had a buffet...SOOO SLEEEPPYY!!!Meeting baby tmrw...She texted me but i was soo busy that i didnt realised that she texted...When i texted her...the way she replied made me think that she was very angry...evn though she say that she wasnt...Maybe its just me...Watever it is..Im sorry baby!Ill make it up to u tmrw...when we meet kay syg...Love you...muacks....Miss you more... The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : The masked man wrote, Tdae...oke up at 11 and followed mum to tampines to buy stuffs...Proceeded to macs to have lunch first then decided to apply for internet...Went to starhub outlet exactly above mac...Got this one package that includes a lappy...Wee...Mum says that lappy's mine!MINE!hahah...Like finally...Thanx mum...love u!But i have to collect it at china square i think at town i think... Anybody wanna come with?haha... So now here i am at home posting alone while my mum and lil sis is shopping at t1...Oh yeah...Gg to eat at hans river at simei later...my NENEK bdae...Happy i-dont-know-how-old-you-are nek!love you!Even though u nag a lot...haha...joking! Couldnt meet baby yestd...She had this stupid banner thingy...STUPID...hahaha....i actually dun mind...Meeting her tmrw...i hope soo...Love you bby!Gonna bite you tmrw as promised....hahaha The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Monday, December 14, 2009 The masked man wrote, Woke up in the morning at 6 FREAKING 30 in the morning..Had to go to the graveyard and dig up my great gran-people cos there are not enogh place to bury other dying beings... -.- Went to meet my uncle who took me there..wow...an almost 1 FREAKING hour journey...Damn sleepy sia...Met my cuz...Had fun sneaking around taking a few puffs here and there...hahaa....stayed there till like 3 which is about 6 FREAKING hours standing under the hot sun while seeing remains of my great-grans..well...If there were any....went home half dead,drenched in sweat and half awake....went home and took a shower which felt totally FREAKING awesome...YES!went down to check who went down and saw nobody...so here i am posting.... I miss my baby FREAKING much! I cant wait to see her tomorrow if possible! I love her so FREAKING much! Word of the day:FREAKING The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Sunday, December 6, 2009 The masked man wrote,  Tdae...Woke up with like a bucket full of flemn stuck in my throat!Damn irritating sia....plus a splitting headache...Fuck!Well...Going skating soon with kam...I'm kind of lazy to hang out at sk...Everyday play com...wtf?!im 18 sia...haha...timee to shift my lift into gear!And another thing is that i miss my baby!at least im meeting her tmrw...And yes i know what day is three days ahead...First time im remembering this kinda stuff....BABY!!!!I MISS YOU The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Wednesday, December 2, 2009 The masked man wrote, Went to accompany mom n sis shopping...Got a tshirt that i wanted like hell!Woohoo!Damn happy!Wow!A lot of chicks there...But i still love my baby!hahah!Met baby just now...Guess what time?At 9am..Yes...9am!!!I was like missing her like fuck!Now i am at haziq's hanging out!Damn bored!Haahaa!Btw...Happy belated birthday to izzy even though i dun know who he is...haha...Met katek yestd went i went to meet bby at dwntwn...Haha..Had fun as usual...But baby had to leave damn early...and we spent time like only how long..nvm..i udstd...Cant meet baby tdae cos of ....That i also understand....I love you baby!Never leave me!YOu are the oasis in my dessert! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
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