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Dated : Thursday, July 29, 2010 The masked man wrote,    These few days,I have been going to work and back,like a lifeless zombie.I don't know what to do,what I want to do or what I am doing.I seem to always fall slowly into a deep stare thinking and reminiscing of the past.I purposely take the long way to work so that I can switch my mp4 to max and just ponder,sitting quietly in the bus/train just going through a pile of hurt called memories.Just now when I was on my way home from work,I didn't know why but I felt like taking 72 back home.It was a longer journey home but there's this urge.So I boarded that bus.Sitting in the bus,musics on loud and my head leaning against the window,I fall alseep.When I woke up,I regretted taking that bus.The bus was in an area where somewhat most of my dreamy memories took place.It was at hougang.Yes.I looked at the interchange and suddenly my mind was like a tape recorder on replay.I saw US holding hands laughing while waiting for a bus.I was joking about this ITE guy.Then everything was on replay.I remembered when we were at sengkang interchange,there was this indian lady and she was on the phone.She walked past us and suddenly shouted "AMA!".I was holding my laughter as hard as I can.Then I just laughed like hell.You were pinching me trying not to laugh.Then I did a mimicry.You laughed too.I sent you to school after that.On the way to school,we couldn't stop laughing about that incident.Well,now I know why I suddenly felt like taking 72.Guess it was so that I remember those good old days that I want back so dearly.But in the process bringing back a familiar pain that I thought was long gone.Long forgotten.I don't know what I will do in the future and what it holds for me or us.But I hope that I will get my second chance.Anyway,from next week onwards,I'll be staying in at camp.Yeah.It sucks.I know.Get to go home only on weekends only.Can't celebrate Hari Raya or my birthday for that matter. Labels: The days just don't seem to get any brighter. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Tuesday, July 27, 2010 The masked man wrote, Is it wrong or strange somehow that I still think of you all these time? Even though we are not an "us" anymore? I still take a look at your FB page quite often,looking and asking myself why fate won't allow "us" to happen? I missed you.I truly do.I missed those days when we ate the coffee shop together,missed kidding around with you,missed laughing and forgetting the world with you.Basically,I missed everything about you.But what am I suppose to do?You already have someone you love.As much as it kills me,I don't wanna be the third party,interfering cos I sure as hell don't wanna put you in a state of confusion.I don't wanna put you in a hard/difficult position.All I had with you are memories of how happy I was.Even my best bro agreed that I was the happiest with you.I can't forget you.And I don't think I want to.Hope there will be an "us" in the future,Mrs Mayday. Love,Mr Mayday The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Sunday, July 25, 2010 The masked man wrote, This week,I met with 2 of my exs(they were friends).They texted me and they said they wanted to catch up.We talked.Had luch and dinner.They talked of our past,the times we were in lust,in love.We laughed on the fun we had.Then they asked me,on all my exs,trying to look for a "type" that I go for.Haha.And that made me thinking.Yeah.I haven't dated a girl that bad.Not bad in the inside but the outside.Has a tattoo,piercings.That would be cool.Haha.Strange rite?All my exs are those goody-tooshooss.Haha.And they didn't work.So maybe with a bad girl it would.Who knows?So now my criteria for love is different.Haha. =D The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Thursday, July 22, 2010 The masked man wrote,  Its been a while since Ive updated my blog.Well,here's some updates of my life right now. I'm single. Yeah. Kinda sucks but it was a decision I made.I don't wanna get into relationships anymore unless that girl can make me feel like I did when I was with Ira which I doubt.I'm soo bored here.Took 2 days of mc.Haha.I'm still the same old same old eih.Went out with farhan to get his IC.Had a blast.Then went to bedok to get my MC only to find out that the poly has cloed. -.- So we went to CGH.Yesterday sure had a lot of eyecandy. And they were checkin us out.Haha.Woo.Farhan got his mp3 he wanted.He was happy for sure.And THANKS FARHAN for the spending.Hee. Anyway,I am so angry...AT MY HAIR! WHY DO YOU TAKE SO LONG TO GROW?! _|_ -.- _|_ Hee! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Sunday, July 4, 2010 The masked man wrote, What's up with your post? You angry with me? Haha. Don't even get me started. You act as if just because I'm your bf that all my time in the world I have has to be spent with you. Not for family,not for friends but just you. Like hello. I was in camp.I have to spare time for my family too. Then what about my friends? They know me longer than you do me. You may be my gf,but that doesn't mean you own me. And I don't own you.So if you want to drink,GO AHEAD! If you want to smoke,BE MY GUEST! I don't care. You don't know what a guy is going through during ns. You girls don't Maybe you can say that i told you how bad is ns but no.Ns isn't bad at all.Its the family and loved ones we missed dearly.that's the torture.So i'm trying to pay back the time they didn't get with me while I was in ns and during weekends I couldn't meet them cos why?! Cos I was with you. If you think i"m selfish then think again,you the selfish one. Wanting to meet every weekend. But I gave in to your requests cos why I love you. But now,I overslept and you are making such a big hoo haa about it.I gave you my time with family,my time of rest,my time with friends. All that was sacrificed cos you wanted to meet me. Do you know how freaking tired I was every single time i met you yet I kept quiet and even was able to be my own self while being too tired.Ask anyguy and he'll say how tired a guy can be after camp. You can cry after reading this post. I'm a bad guy.this is me.Tick me off and this is what you get.I don't care if your my friend,my gf,my mom or even my grandma.I'll still screw you. So how? Regret being with me? Regret loving me? Regret meeting me? If you do,the the door's right there.If not then.hmm....guess you do love me. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
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