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Dated : Sunday, February 28, 2010 The masked man wrote, Days have gone wasted on me not doing anything at all.Well,anything useful that is.What the heck am I doing?I don't know either.Heh.Well.Just done sending my application to ITE for higher nitec in mechanical engineering.I seriously am praying hard to get in.Cos I really don't wanna serve ns that early.I want to,but I wanna complete my ITE first.After that then I will enter willingly.Heh.So i really hope I'm not gonna be bald THAT soon. =) I don't know what to tell you.I know that you are not holding your phone.Argh!I seriously don't know what to think.All I know is that I miss you dearly and I love you. =S Oh yeah.Ahyeen and haziq had a fight.Haiyaa.Ahyeen got crazy fetish..Anyway,she said I help a bit only..Walaoeh.K la I help "a bit" only la.Hahaha...Somethings are best untold. =) The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Saturday, February 27, 2010 The masked man wrote, Went down and hung out with Haziq,Farhan and Mad..Was chilling when haziq realised his wallet was missing.Damn!Searched High and Low.Didn't find it.Damn!Too bad for haziq..Sent him home.Then we sat at his void deck and found a cardboard box.So here's what we did cos we were fucking bored! Got a text from ahyeen. =( But its okae.I really miss her. =( When can we meet again? I wanna hug and kiss you! =( Ouh and BITE you! =P =(
Sometimes I wanna scream..Cos it seems people don't care.But when I shout,people still don't notice me. =( I need you baby! ='( The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Friday, February 26, 2010 The masked man wrote,  Every 5 mins,I check my phone to see if you have texted.And every single time I am disappointed.What are you trying to tell me?Why are you doing this to me?I know you are tired and always busy but can't you just spare 5 mins to reply my text.Haish.I really miss you.But I will keep missing you more unless you text me.You know how it hurts to be really missing someone dearly?Haish.Guess I am falling again.Just hoping you would catch me baby.. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Thursday, February 25, 2010 The masked man wrote,  Heh.I didn't care that you didn't texted me.Actually I did but you had strong reasons and and your one text is enough to make me feel really happy.Hee.I miss you BABY!Haha.Oh yeah.I love you too. ;) The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : The masked man wrote, It hurts..It really does..That I am here waiting but..Haha..Well..Oh yeah..There was a fight I miss.Damn.hha.Babi nye zam.Fuck you!haha.Laen kali picet arh bodoh!haha. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Tuesday, February 23, 2010 The masked man wrote, Gosh I feel really sick.My head is burning up.My body feels weak,and suddenly I have no mood to do anything.So to all the ppl that was waiting for me to be online cos you wanna get crazy with me,my apologies.Oh yeah.Went to my sister's school.Nothing much happened.Boring sia.Then went to t1 to check some stuffs out.Still bored..So went home.Nothing happened much.My daywas so a boring one.The only thing that made me smile was when SHE called.We chatted on the phone.Yeah.I really missed her.Then we texted and all...Haha...Well...I don't think this post is gonna be a long one.My head really feels as if the whole world is shaking.And I feel like vommiting.Haish.. And Happy 2 months to my dear Ahyeen Sykes and Haziq Screams.Haha.. I am soo gonna miss you my dear feyfeypop!I swear to god I am gonna miss you like fuck! ='( The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Monday, February 22, 2010 The masked man wrote, I am trying my best to forget you cos you made it quite simple for you to forget me.Anyways,those promises,I don't wanna think they are lies so I'll just close one eye and imagine that those promises were never made.That'll not make you a liar in my eyes,but just a friend.Anyways,Someone called me today.She wanted to talk to me.Boy oh boy was I happy.Thanks a million ahyeen.Heh.Before the call I swear I felt like shit thanks to ...But right after the call,I suddenly feel like popeye just finishing my spinach.I can't wait to meet you and hug you again.YES I have been missing you.Maybe even more than you think.HEH.Thanks to your voice,I got my sleep once again.My sickness mysteriously disappeared.Maybe all these stuffs was just me and my head.Haa.But who cares?I don't.Nyahaha.Now I miss her voice once again. Oh yeah.Going to my graduation thingy later.I want to go.I will go.I miss my friends.Anyways,we going to eat together like old times after the graduation thingy.The ONE thing I HATE is that I have to be in work smart attire.WTF?!Hahaha.Don't they know me yet?I bet my teachers can answer for me that I am not a Smart attired person.I am messy.And I like it.But,if I don't go to the graduation thingy,I won't be able to meet my beloved friends that I miss ESPECIALLY Kai Jing(Smoking Partner) Wahab(The Crazy Partner) Kiat(My Chinese Brother) Jing Yu(My loved WEIRD friend).The rest not so much but still missed.So haish.This is the one and only day you guys and gals will be able to see the smart me.Haha.If you are not able to catch a glimpse of me,then too bad.Haha. I MISS YOU(Not my school friends or my ex) =) Time:7.04am. I'm watching the original power rangers back then when I was a kid.I feel like a kid again watching them on youtube.Hahah.Yeah.Go Go Power Rangers!  The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Sunday, February 21, 2010 The masked man wrote,  I am feeling so sad rite now.Darn.And to make things worst,I'm sick.I am sad for the fact that there will not be an "us" in the future.Not even a slim chance.The minute I read your reply to me at your tagboard,my heart sank to a whole new level.I just kept quiet,could'nt utter my screams for help.I didn't know what to say.My heart is aching.Memories of you and me smiling are STILL in my head.The first time we met,was actually a last minute plan.At that day,you started to make this certain guy happy.Seriously,I swore I felt so magical.My world was filled with colours again,the air was fragrant once again,the sky was clear and I felt alive.Now that I know I will never get to have those feelings again,I can't help but fall down again.I really miss you.I want that time back.I want you back.If god were to give me a text rite now saying that I have to exchange my life for just a day with her once agian,being loved again,being hugged again,I wouldn't hesitate for a second.I still wait for your text,your call.Everynight,I go to the reservoir.You ppl wanna know why I do that every single night?I go to the same "pondok" to just sit there and reminiscence those sweet memories of her and me.At that "pondok" we ate,laughed,chatted,played around.I really want those times back.I can't take this pain.This agony.This suffering.No matter who I am with,no matter how much I love that certain someone,NO MATTER ANYTHING,YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY NUMBER ONE IN MY HEART.  The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Saturday, February 20, 2010 The masked man wrote, Taking a break from the loud melodies.  When I was taking this pic,I was thinking of you ='(  Just came back from Fake Eyelash's Ep launch.I am soo bored so I'm going to tell you what happened from scratch.Haha. Met farhan and thought of playing cs for a while at sk..But went there and the fucking placewas fully booked.So farhan wanted to get his haircut.So yeah.He did.Nice hairdo.For me that is.Then accompanied him to Tampines cos he wanted to buy some studs for his monroe piercings.Yeah.Went to tam.Bought that stuff.Was so hyper.Dont know why.Guess I was just trying to hide my tiredness from everybody.Went back to inter to take a bus to go back as farhan was still not dressed up for the gig.Otw..Saw Marina..YAY!..Haha...I was kinda hoping to see ya.Dont know why.Haha..Anyway..I went over and said hi.Hahha.She looked real shocked sia..But still cute..I dont know how she does that.Hahaha...Then went to farhan's and he got ready.After 20 mins of him getting ready,Went to haziq's.Otw to haziq's,found out loq was following...Ouh emm gee! I was like "Fuck la...Thanks ah..That news just spoiled my whole fucking mood!"So went to haziq's but couldn't enter for Idk what fuck.So me and farhan went to "pondok toilet".There's like 2 mats and 1 minah.Haha..Fierce sia...Nyahaha...They don't know us yet.Let time takes it course..Haha..Hung out there for a while.FOr a moment..Farhan went into the gents.Wanted to pee pee..So I truned on my mp4 to its maximum and I dont know why.I stared at this particular part of the pondok toilet.I cant forget the memories of us there.Yes it hurts and yes I cried.But I held those tears in.Farhan came and was like, "Awww...Why are you crying?". I replied , "Huh?KAROT!I was yawning la you dumbfuck!Tired ah!HAHAHA".SO proceeded back to haziq's and saw fey there..HAziq came outta there with mad..Then we proceeded to 7-11 to meet Loq. -_-".He came and we took the bus.Mad borrowed my mp4 as usual.Haziq ,fey and loq too plugged in their earpieces.So it was just me and farhan chatting.And todae,90% of what I said was in english.haha..Saaap! Hahaha. oh yeah.Back to today.Me and farhan talked about the usual stuff we would talk about.Ben 10,power rangers,pokemon,superheroes.haha.Was fun yaw!Hah.Reached the designated bus stop and had to walk to scape.Haha.Okay la...Not that near but not too far.Haha.When we reached scape,saw Fake Eyelash members.Heh.Greeted all of them.Saw a bunch of other ppl too..GOD girls was just on fire there.And and,I kept looking at this particular one.Check2 adik _ _ _ _ _.Hahah..But she's damn hot yaw.Kinda looks like chines mixed caucasian but is a malay.Shees.Reminds me of a certain bitch.But still,this girl's hotter.Haha,Oh yeah.Saw Zara.She was so cute.I could'nt keep myself away from her.haha.Too adorable.Yeah.So it was 7.30 and the gig started.It was until 10+ when the much awaited Fake eyelash performed.They were the last band.Haha.And I enjoyed every moment of the WHOLE gig.Loud music.My kinda beat.haha.Got fake eyelash's cd.Yeah.And badge.Haha.Anyways,it was about 11pm when we left scape for home.And now here I am tired like I've never felt. To a certain cute someone: Hurry up top up!So we can go crazy!Nyahaha! I still miss you.I still think of you.But what I read at your blog devastated me.You wanted to try something new.But trying that something new means not giving us a chance in the future.That means us will never come again.I want it to.I hope for it to be true every single day.Well.Your mind's made up.Whatever you do,whatever you may be or whatever you may have become,You will always be that certain someone that is embedded in my heart forever no matter what. Goodnite shiny stars.Goodnite glum moon.Goodnite this hurt.Goodnite tears.Goodnite despair. Goodnite Land dwellers. =) REBLOGGED! I said goodnite at 3.30am.Its now 6.ooam.I really couldn't sleep.Something's really bothering me.I know its about someone.But who?!A girl?A guy?An ex?A family member?Something that happened?Argh!I'm seriously cracking my head open.I'm trying to find the source of this uncertainty.Went down to reservoir for a while in an attempt to try and calm myself down and sort shit out.Haish.Doesnt work its wonders like it used to.No matter how much I smile,no matter how big the act is,I still know that I have things to unsettled.Deeds not done.My concious is screaming out in pain and misery that my heart is experiencing but my brain and mind is telling me to just smile.What about my soul?I have no soul.My soul has been lost to her.Without her,as I may have said,I am a zombie.I lost my soul the minute we parted ways.Wait.Maybe it is because of her.Shit!I can't put point my finger exactly cos my mind is saying this,my heart is saying that,my brain is saying these.My eyes feel so heavy yet the minute I close my eyes,I can't seem to sleep.Where the fuck am I going with all these thoughts?Why is this happening to me?What have I done to deserve this?When will this all end?How can I make it end? Stupid things are sometimes done for the smartest of reasons.So if somebody did something stupid cos of a smart reason,is he stupid?And what if somebody did something smart cos of a stupid reason,is he smart?I don't know what to think rite now.My emotions took over me 2 hours ago. I really really need:
Can these few wishes be fufilled?Can it?Is it possible?If it is,then prove it.Please?With chocolate shavings and melted marshmellows on top.Argh Damn!I had to talk about food.Now there's a Fake Eyelash EP launch all over again in my stomach with everybody moshing.Die!Hahaa...
Labels: I am filled with memories like the pitt of abyss.There's always room for more memories of you. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Friday, February 19, 2010 The masked man wrote,  Just came back from somewhere..Damn tired..Anyways...I had fun...And and,Sorry Zam.Haha..Later I return your shirt back.After I wash it that is..haha...And thanks for sending me home..Dont worry about me...Yes something has been bothering me and no I am not gonna tell anybody about it cos I just feel that it has to be kept deep inside.Telling would do nothing.. To Zam,Jeff,Syam,Sara,Lan and Syasya,thanks for trying to cheer me up.Heh.. Now its 10.20am...Damn tired...But I cant go back to sleep cos I know if I do,I will oversleep. Just went to haziq's to grab his jacket.I was soo damn tired.I swore I could have passed out otw to haziq's.Haish...But Haziq's one of the friends I dont wanna disappoint.So no matter how tired or sick I am,I still have to go.NO MATTER WHAT!But I'm afraid that I would pass out or something during or otw to the gig.Well..I have to suck it up.For a friend. I miss you so much.heh. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : The masked man wrote,  What I am doing? Chatting with marina(webbie-ing) Well,I'm gonna keep it short tdae...Cos I need to sleep...Need to wake up early tomorrow.Hee.Going somewhere.Haha.Shh.Then need to rush back home to haziq's to go to fake eyelash's gig at scape.Well.I think I'll make it.Heh.. Labels: I miss her but I need you. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Thursday, February 18, 2010 The masked man wrote,  My crazy twinHeh...Been chatting with marina a lot.haha.Webcammed with her..hah..She so freaking cute..aha..Yeah...Damn fun.Heh.Made faces and stuff.Haha.Now you convinced I'm more crazier than you?Told ya.Haha.Seriously..She made my boring day shine.Haha.Cos I was so bored at home.Not doing anything much.Hahaha.And I totally got to see her "geram" face...Haha..Its all in the skills.Haha..CUTE!CUTE!I kept saying that sia..Cos she really is..K wait..Marina..Dont overdo it.Hahah.dont action..Haha.And and,Dear marina..You are soo KENTAL!Hahaha..Yeah..LOOSSSEEERR!!with a capital L..A huge one..Haha... Dearly beloved, I don't know what I should do.I am stuck in a position where people would be soo confused and that is what I am.Today,everybody got a taste of how foul I could be.Even my family.Well except Marina cos luckily she was too cute. Maybe it is because of you.Hell MAYBE.I'm seriously not sure.What am I suppose to do? Dear god, I am a lost boy.Help me.Show me the way or at least what I am suppose to do. My anger and the pain in my heart is seriously getting on other people skins. It sure as hell ain't normal.I can't keep going on like this everyday. Give me a relapse.Then take me back into time.I really wish it could happen. You're god,you make things happen.So MAKE IT. Dear kind souls, To all those people that felt I was hard in any way which offended ya, my apologies to you.I was just not myself.Life just isn't working for me. And to those who asked me what happened and you noticed that I was not myself, If I lied,sorry.Natural reaction.If I didn't wanna tell you,I'm sorry. I've been having these bunch of irritating mood swings.God!It is as if I'm having my period.Hah.Well.I'm not sure what i'll say tomorrow but today,I have decided to stand up.Face life the way it needs to be face.Stare fear in the eyes.Laugh when the worst has come. Guess chatting with you has made me come back,the old me.Thanks marina aka miss kentalz.Haha. To all your glum faces,look out.I'm back to smack those frowns outta your face.The old me is back.Hee.But I'll still wear my mask just in case.Haha. Some how I know who's gonna be tagging me about this post. -_-" The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : The masked man wrote, Today is random day!This is how random I can get. Butterflies are evil.Teletubbies are saitan.Fishes can walk.Birds fart a lot.Cows are aliens.Coke is blue in colour.Shoes are food.Everybody pees upwards. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Wednesday, February 17, 2010 The masked man wrote, I really need a shoulder to cry.Someone who would just shut up and just let me cry it all out.Please?Anyone?I dont care if I dont know you.I dont care if I love you.I just need a shoulder.And a hug.Its killing me deeply.I can't hold my tears back anymore.I feel so crippled.I am stuck in the corner of the world.Please.Call me,text me.Just make me forget this pain even for a second.Please? Labels: I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : The masked man wrote,  Dearly beloved,I still miss and love you. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Tuesday, February 16, 2010 The masked man wrote, I don't wanna make it so obvious so I have translated what I felt like posting in A LOT OF DIFFERENT LANGUAGES. Ritengo così perso. Realmente li manco difettosi. Je ne peux pas cesser la pensée à toi. I immobile et vous aiment toujours. Como você disse em seu borne precedente, não importa quem você se move sobre com, 1 ou nivelam 2 guys, mim estão ainda em sua cabeça. Mesmo vai aqui. Χάνω όλα για σας. Θα θυσίαζα τίποτα κυριολεκτικά. Οι φίλοι μου; 私はあなただけとむしろある! 食糧か。それはあなた以来の好みを残失った。お金か。 비록 나가 백만장자이었더라도, 나는 나가 당신과 가진 날 동안 다만 있는 매 센트를 무역할 것입니다. פלסטיני בעודן כחלת שלי והג עבודה אבל לפחות אני לשכוח על הכאב במשך זמן-מה לבי. Who is this post about?  Her. Dear god,fufill either one of these wishes.(i'll give you some help on this one,both is in turkish)
I really can't live without her.Sometimes I wonder,why aren't I dead yet?
PS:If you found out that your blog has been tagged by someone called "crazy guy",GUILTY IS CHARGED.
AKU MENDAK!TAK TAU APE NAK BUAT!KACAU SEMOT PN JADI LA!HAIYOO!MENGAPE ORG SUME TDO BILE AKU BGN,BGN BILE AKU TDO AND ONLINE BILE AKU TAK?ENTAH LA!AGRH!MENDAK!BABI NYE SOTONG NYE CHEF NYE BOSS NYE ANAK NYE KAMBENG NYE COMPUTER NYE DOCTOR NYE POSTMAN NYE DOT.COM... K LAME!MENDAK! Like OMG!This is the first few words that I've posted in malay since....IDK WHEN!See?Im that bored till I post in malay. Labels: I still and will always love you and only you braceface =( The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Monday, February 15, 2010 Tuesday?Naaah.Boreday The masked man wrote,  I am like so bored.Bored Bored Bored.Don't know what to do.And none of my gerek chatting friends online.Haish.Wanted to go to inter to play some lan games but HAZIQ was lazy.DUMBASS! And and Nicky called me.Seems she is back in singapore.The start to a very irritating series.The conversation is this.
Well...I replied.
Then I put down.hahaha.
REBLOGGED! Just finish watching Percy Jackson and The Lightning Thief.Cool show!I give it a 4.5 star ratiing.It really pulled my interest.haha.And the actress,Alexandra Daddario,SHE IS SO HOT!OMG!NYAM NYAM!heh..She kinda reminds me of selina gomez.An older version.but nevertheless.HOT! Labels: Ps:YOU SUCK The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : The masked man wrote,      Now that my mp4 is already fixed,ears contantly plugged in.heh.Cant stop listening to these bands.
I feel like you didnt believe me.Cos I saw your pm.I couldnt help bt feel that you were talking about me.But what if it was for the guy your moving on with.Argh.Too many questions in my head.
Many more which my too stressed mind forgot. I read back at my old posts when I was with you.I cried.All those sweet words that I used to describe you.That shows how magical you made me feel. You are the oasis in my dessert. You're the t-shirt i never had. The note missing in my song.Without you,the song is incomplete. Your smile can bright up my darkest days. Because of you,now,I look forward to waking up.My life now has a purpose. These are only a FEW I care to copy paste. Heck,I really miss you cine!I really do. OMG!Just realised its already 6am.HAHAHA. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : The masked man wrote, Your guardian angel - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus When I see your smile Tears run down my face I can't replace And now that I'm stronger I've figured out How this world turns cold And breaks through my soul And I know, I'll find deep inside me I can be the one I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to Heaven It's okay, it's okay, it's okay Seasons are changing and waves are crashing And stars are falling all for us Days grow longer and nights grow shorter I can show you, I'll be the one I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to Heaven 'Cause you're my, you're my, my My true love, my whole heart Please don't throw that away 'Cause I'm here for you Please don't walk away And please tell me, you'll stay, stay Use me as you will Pull my strings just for a thrill And I know, I'll be okay Though my skies are turning gray I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to Heaven I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to Heaven I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'm Yours - The script You touch these tired eyes of mine, And map my face out line by line And somehow growing old feels fine.. I listen close for I'm not smart You wrap your thoughts in works of art, And they're hanging on the walls of my heartChorus - I may not have the softest touch, I may not say the words as such, And though I may not look like much, I'm yours. And though my edges may be rough. I never feel I'm quite enough, It may not seem like very much, But I'm yours. Verse - You heal these scars over time, Embraced my soul, you loved my mind You're the only Angel in my life The day news came, my best friend died My knees went weak and you saw me cry Say I'm still the soldier in your eyesChorus - I may not have the softest touch, I may not say the words as such, And though I may not look like much, I'm yours. And though my edges may be rough, I never feel I'm quite enough, It may not seem like very much, But I'm yours.I may not have the softest touch, I may not say the words as such, I know I don't fit in that much. But I'm yours. These two songs have been sung for this girl and will only be for this girl.I miss her so dearly.But seems she's moving on.All I can do is best of luck to her.Hope she's happy.Even though deep inside,I still want her back.But if she'll be more happier without me then so be it.Like emy made me realise,guys would rather sacrifice themselves just to see the ones they love be happy.Guess i am one of those guys.heh. 5 days have past(A beginning).I still cant forget your FIRST long text to a guy ever to me.Those words made me cry.And they still do.I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU.THAT IS A PROMISE.Cos no matter how hard I try,I just can't.I...Well..Some words and feelings are better kept in the heart way deep inside than told to all. You are the greatest Ive felt for.You are more than words could describe.Yet when you left,You are the worst I've fell from.A wound cut open that is bound to NEVER heal without you. _ _ _ _ _ _ See?Even spelling your name,tears would flow. Labels: Tears that could never dry out The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Sunday, February 14, 2010 The masked man wrote, When I fall down,somebody comes and pick me up.The funny thing is,I'm not expecting you to.Every time I fall,a girl comes by.Its not that I'm not appreciating the helping hand.I do.But every time someone helps me,I feel so great and that is what that will most definitely lead me to another fall.I'm not tired of falling.I'm just tired that the girl helping me up isn't the girl that caused my fall.Sad.I know.Heh.And guys,yes she is pretty.But no I am not stupid.I was.I admit it.I fall in love too easily.Like what my weird twin sis put at her pm on msn, "He's locked to love"(reffering to me).This is my weakness.But I have decided to not let it be my weakness.Heh.Yeah.My apologies to Fatin and Sheila for not accepting your "invite" to vday.Maybe the both of you didn't exactly ask me out but yeah I got what the both of you were hinting.Hey..I'm a guy that read between the letters.Not the lines.Now that I think back of what the both of you said,heh,I feel so guilty.I have been declined so I know how it feels.Yeah.You must have been at home waiting by your phone expecting me to ask you out at last minute.Heh.So sorry my dears.Promise I'll make it up to you two.Hah.I sound like a playboy with two girls.Heh.I know.Seriously.I am just trying to make you two feel good about yourself cos I dont want you two to feel bad about yourself.Like I am now.Haish.Haha.But me falling again will be inevitable.Haish.Guess sacrifice is needed for happiness. People say "Sometimes,all you have to do is wait." People say "Things can only get better." People say "Be patient.It will come due time." People say this,people say that. Personally,I think it is all bullshit.Heh.The girl I thought was my dream girl and still is,had to go not because of hate but studies.Heh.See?How unlucky can a guy get?Well.Ask me and I can list down every single thing that has happned in my life.Heh.A girl I kissed went for another...Heh.Sad sad sad me.Well.All I can do is "smile" cos frowning makes ppl look ugly.Crying is wet and screaming makes your throat coarse.So great day to all. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Saturday, February 13, 2010 The masked man wrote, Going out later...hehe...Yeah...On vday...Quick you might say...Nahhh...I'm going out with someone I TRULY loves and I believe who loves me back....HAHAH...And HE is not a girl.HE is gay.HE is my bestest friend FEY FEY POP!Hheh (Crazy Jesus)Well..Gonna get my pay for yestdays work at pasir ris later on.Haziq's joining us.So its me,farhan,haziq and fey.Im the only one single.DAMN YOU ALL!hahaha.Then proceeding to town to go SHOPPING!Heh! =) The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : The masked man wrote, Just came back from work.Haha.Oober tired.Haha.When I came out from workplace,walked to bus stop to find that the last bus had left like 15 mins ago.Sad.So me and mad just took any bus which would put us closer to bedok.Haha.Took a bus.Dont know what bus.Stopped at kallang.Took a cab.Haha.Went home and here I am. Valentine's day is here and to all those celebrating it,enjoy and to those who aren't,ENJOY.Heh. I think you may have noticed that my old posts till idk when has been deleted.Haha.Idk why.I felt like it.Heh. Valentine date: 2 Accepted: 0 Rejected: 0 Rejected with stupid but obvious(I dont wanna go out with you) reasons: 2 Baha.Sorry gals.I just am sick of tired of YOUR playing tricks.Yes.I said YOUR.As in the whole fucking gender of girls and guys who fuck up innocent people's emotion.You know what,thanks to YOUR kind,my heart is broken once again.A big whoopee!I feel so EXPECTED.Cos YOUR KIND is expected.Expected to suck.Expected to hurt.Expected to lie.Expected to hold.Heh.FUCK FUCK FUCK YOUR KIND.I am soo hurt that you can't even begin to describe it bloody kids,playing with other's emotions like toys.God I wish you people were on the twin tower when it crashed down.Now wait,I take that back.I wanna kill you people with my own hate,anger and pain.Am I angry?Fuck yeah.Cos I knew this was gonna happen yet why did I still push my instincts aside?Heh.Stupid me.*something happened* Heh.Thanks W2.What you told me actually made me kinda open.Well..Now I KNOW i dont need a mask.Cos I am NOT sad anymore.I want YOU PEOPLE to see how fucking furious I am.So IF YOU ARE A GIRL AND YOU THINK YOU WOULD LIKE TO KNOW ME BETTER,I SUGGEST YOU TAKE ONE STEP BACK,RUN AND NEVER LOOK BEHIND. Cos if you don't,I will notice you.And I will entertain you.But know this,I WILL NOT BE IN LOVE WITH YOU.I WILL PLAY YOUR HEARTS LIKE THE FUCKS WHO HAVE PLAYED MINE.Yeah I know that's not fair,they are innocent.Like the fuck should I care.All these while,I've been playing the good guy and only a FEW notice,so why should I keep on playing the good guy role?Bad guy role is way much cooler.Heh.And oh so easier. Yeah I read your blog and yeah that was what triggered my anger rite here in this post.Feel bad?Wanna cry?Well..All I can say is I'm too far away to pass some tissues so dont give me a call.Better yet.I just deleted your num.Awww..Dont feel sad.Every single girl who I dont have a need to contact,their number's have been deleted.Only those who truly made a mark wasn't. Ergh!I feel so angry.I seriously wanna scream and shout.Better yet.Kill!Only one girl I know has tasted the good and bad side of me.The TRUE me.And I still regret showing her my bad side.Well.Im sorry once again. To all those people who like to play and toy with a person's heart,YOU ARE NO LONGER MY FRIEND.So if you aren't my friend anymore that means you are a player^^ (of people's hearts.ASS!)Haha.No matter how much I try to ridicule myself,I still feel the hurt which makes me so angry which makes me to keep on ridiculing myself so that I'd be happy.NOT WORKING! Ps:If any of you wanna know if your number has been deleted,try texting me.If I reply then your num hasn't been deleted. PREPAID EQUALS $0.01.AHAHHAHA The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Wednesday, February 10, 2010 The masked man wrote,  Woke up.Didn't know why.Was full of anger and rage.Saw no one was home.On lappy to find out that internet was giving me fucks.Mom and sis came home.Shortly followed with lil bro.As usual,debated with lil bro.Irritating.Then went down to buy smokes.Otw.Saw a bunch of typical matreps.Kept staring at me.Was a group of 5.One was wearing ping yi shirt while another was damai.I went there and decided to make a fuss.I don't know.I just felt like punching somebody today.But they just said sorry.FUCK FUCK FUCK!Then after buying smokes.Smoked like 2 sticks continuosly.Anger is like flowing through my veins fused with the blod that travels to my head.I swear today is just my negatve day.Everything in my head rite now is negative.Everything that all YOU people have done to me that has hurt me in the past.EVERYTHING.From what my bestie did to what somebody I hate did.So today is basically the day you don't wanna mess with me cos today,if you mess with me,the one that will be messing with you ain't your friend. Was the dream I had last night that triggered the anger in me that was kept deep down covered with smiles and friendly gestures?I remembered the dream vaguely.Was it what I did or was it what happened?Argh.This guy that is always smiles and happy laughters is not himself today.I'm fuming with anger and filled with hatred.The hate and anger buried deep in me is now surrounding me waiting for a victim to be preyed at.So...To all of you who have done any wrong to me,now is the time for you to feel guilty.Thanks to YOU PEOPLE,this guy is unleashing it on EVERYONE. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Tuesday, February 9, 2010 The masked man wrote,  Now 6 years back Primary school days Just a kidSee how my transformation in life?Yeah..I was sweet and innocent.I was the smart kid.I was the good kid in school.I change when I was in sec 4.Reason is just that even though I may look like I am having the time of my life.In fact I was..Till I went in school.Since kindergarten,I was bullied,basically because I think I was being nice.Too nice I think.Imagine a boy growing up,being the target of bullies,insults and sarcasm.Heh.Thats why that small little boy developed a new image,a new exterior,a new personality...A TOTALLY NEW ME..I am just sick and tired of being the victim.Now I have what I didn't have those years ago,friends,love(not sure... Now I am in love.You told me if you are afraid of that I'll turn out to be those guys in your past.I kept questioning myself "Is it true?Am I like those guys?"Seriously,I questioned myself..Couldn't get the answer.So I asked people(girls) cos girls know about shitty guys than guys.Well...I got the same answer.No.In fact a few said that I'm the guy that's hard to find.The guy that knows how to appreciate girls.The guy that is one of a kind.So why am I not convinced?Well.Maybe I need to hear it from YOUR mouth.We'll see. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Sunday, February 7, 2010 The masked man wrote, Well...This weekend was the most confusing weekend I've ever had in my whole life.Seriously.. Friday-Went to Haziq's chalet.Nothing much happened that day.But sadly on that day was the same day as ..... Haish.Was kinda down that night.Couldn't sleep at all...Actually that was because of Haziq's continous farts.Haha...And Fey kept on saying "Crazy Jesus!"Hahaha.... Saturday-Went to Tampines Sports Hall with Haziq to fetch Ahyeen and Fafa.Sat at there.Waited and waited.Watched some ppl play ping pong and badminton.Then they went out of the toilet.Long sia!Haha..Girls! Pffffftt...Then Haziq and Ahyeen was like doing the eyebrows at me.Heh..Went back to chalet.At that time,there was like NO feelings for Fafa at all.But we talked and had fun.Somethings can't be blogged.Haha.Privacy.Haha.And Ahyeen helped Fey put on his FIRST make up I think.Heh. Bro!No matter who you become,I will still love you black ass! Seriously,when Ahyeen,You,Haziq and me were at the bedroom,by that time,IT had grown.By a bit.And seriously,I have never done what I did to you at anybody else.In a good way that is.I felt so blissful.Nyeheh.And I sooooo love the way you reacted to it.Hahaha.CUTE GILER!And when you had to go,I was like soo sad.Like I wanted to spend more time with you. Well..Haziq,me and Fey sent Fafa and Ahyeen home.Took 5.Like WOW!So far!haha!Ahyeen and Haziq were doing their regular routine which I won't say it here..Haha..Fey stuffed his earpiece with his music on max.You were tired so you slept.Hhehe.You were so innocent.heh. To whom it may concern:You should do whatever you think is right.I won't tell you what to do.DONT BREAK THE GUYS HEART!NOOOOOOOOO!hahahahaha...Kidding! Bluek! Then at night.A fight occured.Well,both sides were wrong.To tell you guys the truth,I dont hate you guys.I seriously dont.I was just a microphone for my friends who can't say it out.And he's your boyfriend.So if he hates me now then so be it.Im too lazy to care.And just so you know,im not your friend anymore.Dont text me aite.You were suppose to be able to control him.Well..I just hope this bad blood has evaporated.I dont wanna fight.I hate to hurt the people I still treat as friends.Well.I understand how your bf feels.For that I am sorry.And the hurt that I have caused him,Im sorry.Well..I hope that he can still be my fren.Tell him that he has sharp knuckles.Darn!My head bled.Hahaha.And for that bruised eye,again I am sorry..I forgot that you two were already tgther.How dumb of me!Haha. Thanx to you,songs that I had no interests in are now stuck in my head,with pictures of you.Haha.I dont want them to go away.Heh.I already miss you. =( How should I say this?I guess you brought a big enough broom to sweep me off my feet. ;) The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Thursday, February 4, 2010 The masked man wrote,  Firstly,Sorry to haziq,ahyeen and fafa for hanging up.Stressed up.Mask just not working like it used to.Well..This is the one and only day I really need my mask.Cos Im going to ziqko's chalet later.Tonning there till sun.So no fun if they see me with a frown.Yeah.. The moment I hung up the phone.Anger filled my veins like poison.But the moment I wanted to blow up,I remembered why I was acting all hyper and happy on the phone.Her.I miss her soo much.I can't bear this piercing feeling.It is killing me slowly but surely.Haish And to my dearest lil "sis":You didn't came to haziq's celebration when he did come for yours.Reason:You were lazy.Everybody was disappointed.Me i bet the most.Then everybody was like talking about you for a sec.I didnt say anything cos I couldn't.You were at fault.You know how painful it was to hear everybody talking about you,the lil sis I love?I hated every moment of it.Then today I hear you calling haziq at night,asking him why we didn't ask all the "others" along.Im like wtf?!Who are you to invite those who you wanna come?I myself don't want them to come but did I say anything?NO!I just replied,"its your chalet.Not mine."Yet there you were irritating haziq.You know how stressed the fuck he is?!We had everything planned out.Seriously.You just blew everything as if it was just a piece of paper in a windy storm.Argh!Now I dont know what to do.Seriously,I dont even feel like going but i don't wanna disappoint those who want me to come.UNLIKE SOMEBODY.Well...Ive said what I wanted.hope you read this.Cos this is the only way you can get the whole truth from me without seeing me blowing my top off. I swear to god today is just not my day.Well..Something seems to be going my way.Its gonna rain.Guess Im gonna play in the rain later.Ha! Don't worry.I won't get sick.Immune to it thanks to a childhood of not listening to mom and playing in the rain. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : The masked man wrote, Today,I feel so down again..I reminiscence in the times we had.Its been exactly one month yet I've been wanting to tell you how much I miss you every single god damn day but I keep thinking that you might already forgotten about me.Haish.And I'm not helphing myself much.Had a dream just now.No.More of a flashback.Remember at pasir ris park?You and all your frens and those bunch of dumb MALAY matreps.Heh.We played volleyball even though I didn't know how to.Haish.Since we parted ways,every single god damn time I see a volleyball,I would be sad inside but hee! Ill be angry outside.Haish. I really miss you. And and the fact that I woke up with a text message that broke my hopes of having fun tomorrow.Haish.Well.Guess Ill have to put on a great spectacle then.Haish.Fuck!Fuck!Fuck! If the both of you are reading this,FUCK YOU!I know the both of you not reading this cos you don't know I have a blog.ahaha.Well.Im not that heartless.. Still miss ya braceface! =( The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : The masked man wrote, Well...Its 2.45am..Just woke up..Idk uh waht made me woke up..Slept at 11pm just now.Haha.Yeah!I know...I felt diffirent just now.Haha.Woke up seeing text mad and farhan asking me where I was..Replied only farhan's...Well..Mad been an extra ass these few days.Haish.Dont know what wrong with him...The way he's talking to me and the way he's been reacting to the way I talk to him.Argh!Irritating much!Well..At least I got a warning earlier from kam.Haha.Thnx bro! I miss my 2 besties.Fey and Kam...Fey not soo cos met him like a few days back,but Kam..Its been a while..He's now always busy with work and stuff.Argh!I wan those days back.When me and kam would skip school.We would have fun doing parkour stunts..Going to the poly..Telling all those stupid jokes and pranks...I dont care if I dont meet all the people I have met.Cos I met my true friend.KAMSANI BIN blablabla..haha..Like Im gonna tell you..So I cant wait for saturday...Gonna meet him..Yay! 
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Dated : The masked man wrote, Tomorrow...I cant wait...The next day also I cant wait...Haha....Well... Cant update full cos my brother sebok want to use MY lappy...ergh! Waiting for her call but naaah..Maybe she is sleeping..Hehe... Sweetdreams... =) The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : The masked man wrote,  An,Phin,Mad Just woke up..Its 3++pm..Noticed that I got a text msg from AHYEEN asking me to call her...Thought somebody die or what sia?Sound soo urgent..Haha..Then I found out.....kk....Shhhhh...Silence...Sorry I told ya I wanted to sleep.I feel so guilty right now.Well..Sorry.. Oh yeah..Went to wisma yesterday...haha...Was on our way when approached by this guy who is scouting for models...Mad have their name card given by another person days agoo..So the guy gave me and farhan..And he told me that I could become an event model...Idk what that is ah...Sounds.... $.$ Kaching....lols...Haha..Well...Sent my bloody mp4 there...To get it fixed..We didnt move anywhere for like almost 1 hour because..PLAYED THE PS3 THERE!There was this game,Darksiders...Cool sia!The controllers got stucked to my hands...And mad's and farhan's eyes attached to the screen..Nyehehe..Then went eat at mac..Hha..Fun sia..Girls was like everywhere...Farhan was like posing here and there..And mad was like cursing every girl..I was the guy in the middle laughing his balls out...Then went to toys r us...Dont ask me,ask farhan... - . - Oh yeah...Had real fun talking to ya otf..Heh!Hahaha..Looking forward to seeing you on sat...Miss ya!Nyehehe...AHYEEN SHHHHH!! HAZIQ IS SO GONNA GET OWNED BY ME IN COUNTERSTRIKE LATER!NYAHAHA! I AM UNSTOPPABLE! K karot! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Tuesday, February 2, 2010 The masked man wrote, Just woke up and saw mom getting ready to go I dont know where..Haha.. *yawns* Got my money and sent mom to the bus stop..Like OMG!Haha..A lot of matreps...Haha..Me with my smelly face...Haha..Once my mom got in a cab,Hahaha...FANATIC!Nyahaha...Imagine me with my "just woke up" face staring at every single one of them...Hahhaa...I am imagining it rite now and its like so damn funny...Hahaha...Blablablablablabla..K im bored...Had a strange dream last night..I was at school...I dont know which school but i know it was ITE..Saw fathia there...And yana too..Haha..Fathia was like surrounded with guys and my class was surrounded with girls...Her class and my class merged for a session or something like that.Then we met and hugged..Missed her soo much you know..Haha..Then i looked at my class,a lot of jealous faces.Looked at her class,a lot of jealous faces too.Told fathia..She and I laughed..Haha..Sat tgther...Then this teacher came and taught us about something la..Hello!Its me here..I dont pay attention in class...Haha...Then the teacher suddenly got a gun and started shooting everybody...Then the scene changed into a wild wild west scene..Instead of being scared,I was having fun..Suddenly I was on a horse..With guns and all..The teacher kept shooting at me and I did the matrix move.Nyehehehe...Then I shot back at him..*suppense moment*NO BULLET!So took out a bazooka that was in my pocket...(my pocket was so small,guess I had doraemon's pocket).As soon as I shot,I woke up.Argh!Was having fun..Hahah... Going out to wisma later with farhan and mad...Go there too fixed my fucked up mp4.Argh!Argh!Argh!Luckily it costed me more than 200 bucks.If it didnt,*ploop*,flushed down the toilet bowl..hahaha.... Looking forward to saturday.Hee ^^.. Shhhhhh! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Monday, February 1, 2010 The masked man wrote, Hahaha...Mad is now at my house...Singing to alesana's new album - The emptiness...haha...Cute! Well..switched on my com and saw zaza's recommendation to a song...Heh...Damn nice zaza...Thanks shorty....Well...I don't see any reason to hate but I see many reasons to love...So Friends?I hope soo...We had so much fun..Heh.. And read fafa's blog too..Heh...Somebody at her taggy asked me to myob...Haha...So to "You,Yourself",haha...Make me mind my own business..haha...If you are a girl,LIKE DAMN AH!But if you a guy,Haha,I live at bedok reservoir road 74+.Around sheing shiong there...haha...So come here...And make me!Lallala...Cos this year..Not many fights...damn bored.No fun..Haha...And don't forget to bring friends..Nyaaaaak...Haha..Cos I'm the kinda person that always have fun with my friends..ahaha..Anyway,I want to test a new skill I have..Well...We have...Haha...Combo... -.-... And and..... Happy birthdae FAFA! heh!May all your dreams come true...Like you,A DREAM TURNED REALITY.Heh...*Hugs and kisses* WAITING!~ The mask is what separates me from being normal.
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