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Dated : Wednesday, March 31, 2010 The masked man wrote,  I just came back from woodlands.Met popok there. Today.I won't blog about what happened. We met.You looked a bit different.But hey.I didn't mind.You were quite.For only half an hour,then you started to become hyper-active.My guess is that that's your nature.So yeah.I laughed with all the cute things you did.Then we sat down.I believe somewhere at that point that I was love-smitten.You gave me a small doll.We talked.I was happy for a while.When you took your bus and I took mine,I started to miss you.My mind was constantly thinking of you.The doll you gave me,I held it.Kept looking at it.Then all these questions popped in my head.I started to get worried cos there might not be an us. Do we feel the same way about each other?Am I more than just a friend? My head is just having the most biggest migraine EVER. What am I to do? Reblogged! I got your answer and believe me,it was the sweetest thing I have ever gotten. Baby has gone to sleep already and I am now with Mad and Bestie KAM.Hee.Hanging out.Planning about sat.Farhan's birthday party celebration.Those who wanna come,you can come along.We tonning.Haha.Text me.My weekend is full of plans.Meeting my loved POPOK on fri.Sheeshaing with my old cchy friends.Hee.Then proceeding to meet up with the guys to celebrate an's bdae.Wow.But I don't mind.FINALLY!I won't be sitting at home.Hee. Goodnight~ Sweetdreams~ And a sweet kiss for my baby Popok!  I abcd you! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Tuesday, March 30, 2010 The masked man wrote, I'm tired.So fucking tired.Can I pass out and sleep till next year?Seriously! Haish.My eyes are getting droopy.So goodnite!I know this is a short post but my fingers are tired too. Sweetdreams beautiful. Sleeptight gorgeous. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Monday, March 29, 2010 The masked man wrote,  My dearest popok. She is one of the sweetest girl I have ever met.Everytime I'm down,she will try almost anything just to cheer me up.I love her because we always talk crap and laugh.She always manages to put a smile on my face and thus vice-versa.She is fun,caring,loving,sweet,HOT and oh so cute.Happy is what I feel when I am chatting with her.She is one of those sweet occurences in my life.I am happy to have met her for I would be really sad if I didn't. I love my dearest Popok! <3 Guys out there treating her like what I know,please.Stop it.You do not know that she is suffering.Deep down.You don't see her sadness.Wanna know why?Thats because she's a strong girl.So stop treating her as if she's disposable.She's not. Anyway,if you hurt her,I'll coax her.Nyaha.I get to coax a hot girl. Hee!I'm kidding. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Saturday, March 27, 2010 The masked man wrote, When I think about you, I sometimes feel sad that you are not with me cos I miss you so dearly. I sometimes feel frustrated and confused at the mixed signals you sending to me. I sometimes feel happy reminiscing in all those memories of us together having fun. I sometimes tear up feeling cold cos you were my sun My mood swings aren't really mood swings at all.They are just emotions triggered just by thinking about you. In the day,I don't want to wake up cos I don't wanna start thinking about you. In the night,I don't want to go to sleep cos I don't wanna stop thinking about you. I'm like a lovebird,alone slowly dying. Somehow I just can't stop crying. Not out in the open but down deep inside. I just can't baby,I'm sorry I tried. Everywhere I go I see couples all around, Sad,I just kept quiet,Didn't make a sound. I was lost my dear,here without you.  Wait!I'm still lost and that the truth.--------------- I wrote this when I was...Shit,I don't remember.Guess I'm still fucked up.Anyway,I finished it but I just put a small part for a message to be sent.Well.I gotta get my rest for now so Im gonna crash. Its 9am.Heh.I'm still the same old same old.Just torn and fucked up inside. Goodmorning.... Dear angels, I hope I will wake up from this nightmare, OR Never to wake up again to this living nightmare. Oh yeah. Ps:Please don't ask me if I am okae or not. =( The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Friday, March 26, 2010 The masked man wrote, Basically,I've not been online cos I just got a virus and it prevents me from switching on my computer.So that means that means that I have to use my lappy which almost everybody wants to use so I have to wait and be patient. I just came back from RP with farhan and mad.Mad wanted to meet a girl.Took 168 which took like almost an hour to reach to woodlands.Sat in the bus.Chitter chatter.Oh yeah.Otw there,we saw some construction workers on the back of a truck.One of the workers had a beard which kinda reminded me of osama BUT he was wearing shades so I was like telling mad and an,"Ko tengok,Osama,die disguise stakat pakai shades.Macamane die tak kene tangkap."Haha.Reached there and saw Mimi(the girl) with a bunch of her friends.Me and an were going like "KIMAK!Pecah!Kepok!Hantu!Setan!Ju-on!Shrek!Gremlin!Argh!"Haha.But we just followed them to RP.They bought us tickets for a concert but was short of one,so an and I were discussing who wants to go in.An didn't and I sure as hell didn't so we asked them to go ahead first.When we decided who goes then the person going will enter.They went ahead. The minute they went in,we were like, "Okay!So we're BOTH not going in!An,yok gi mac!Aku lapar!"Zoom!We disappeared to mac.Haha.Bought takeaways and went back to RP.Ate there and saw some mats -_- doing tectonik with torch.One of them(fat) was a real pro so I was like awed for a while.Then the others did too.I was like come on!When you were starting to learn how to shuffle,me and the gang were already at marina shuffling our ass off.When you people were starting to be good at jumpstyle,we were learning to tectonik.LAMBAT ZAMAN!Haha.So mad and the rest went in at about 7.15pm and the concert ended at 9.30pm.We waited outside.But time flew real fast cos an and I,we had a lot of likings in common.It was 9.15pm when we went to the 7-11 and bought some drinks.Thirsty as hell.Then this uncle came up to us and asked what time is it,so i told him 9.15pm.Then he asked me all these question,"Are you waiting for a friend,are you a student here,what course are you in...An and I just entertained him.I told him I am a student in RP and then he asked me what course,then I remembered seeing something with the word "BIO" on it.So i just said the first word that popped outta my head."BIO-METRIC".Then he said "Huh?Bio medic? I was like "uhuh."Acting all cool and stuff.Then he asked an and he just said a bunch of balony.I told the uncle I had to go.The minute an and I turned.An said "Mak kau peh puki betol" while I said "Pukimak kau betol".HAHAHA. Then the people attending the concert came out.Wow.Eyecandy.Chicks,but there were a lot of Mak Chicks too.Ewwww.Haha.Mad came up with that word.It is to describe girls who don't qualify as a chick(damn ugly).Haha.Then we went home. Something happened at home which caused me to have a minor breakdown.I texted Popok and Jaja.Well.Popok cheered me up a bit with her showing that she really cared.Jaja tried her best by telling me this and that but those are what I tell people who are down.Sorry Jaja.Its hard to do what I preach.Well.Thanks for the effort though.Love you two lil siss!But no matter how much ANYBODY try,I still won't listen to you,I won't do what you say.I will just lie to you and say yeah,i'll be fine and all that MEOWSHIT.Why?Because I will only listen to my family or to the one I really love.I don't know why.Guess its just me. I really wanted to text you.I really needed you to tell me what I should do or what I should not do.Cos I still love you.I still think about you.I still miss you.But I didn't cos I am confused.I am afraid of what you might say.I am afraid of your opinion.Well,fear must be present in order for love to.Haish.I hope you top up soon, =( Oh yeah.I recently talked to my mom.I told her I wanted to get piercings.She said yes.YAY!BUT! I need to get a job fist.Haha.I need a job cos I want these piercings.Lips Idk which one.Hee.    Hee! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Thursday, March 25, 2010 The masked man wrote, I don't know why but i feel ignorance from you.Argh it hurts. ='( Why again? Why?! ='(( The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Tuesday, March 23, 2010 The masked man wrote, Just woke up but I had to blog on what I had dreamt as it was a really weird dream and a bit spooky too.I dreamt that I had to fetch a blue mini cooper or a volkswagen beetle.I don't remember which.So yeah.Took a bus to a car company,signed something and they gave me a key.I knew that I didn't have any license so I was like telling him "you sure?".Then he told me everything was taken care of so I went in the car to drive back home.Well,when I was a kid,I used to own a lot of adults in the racing car game in the arcade so I basically knew how to drive and drift a car i think.Haha.And I did.Overtook a lot of cars and passed by a cop's car and they just pulled me over to ask me where I learned to drive like that.Haha.Phew.So I parked at a park somewhere,I can't remember.Then I took my lappy out and surfed the net.As usual,FB,MSN then blog.Fb was normal,MSN,Popok said hi but I didn't entertained cos I was busy checking my blog.Then I went to Adriah's blog,yawee.She posted about this indian guy whom I knew of somewhat and they went back together.I was devastated.Then I took my phone and just typed what I felt but with no intention of sending it to her.The funny thing is,the moment I pressed "Save Message",I was crashed into by a train.Scary.Immediately,I saw my soul coming out of my body.Well.Then I went home,to see my family crying which hurts me so much.Then my mom contacted Fey and Kam,my best buds.Kam picked up the call and thought it was a prank call.So he called my mom's number and realised it wasn't a prank.I was immediately at Kam's.He cried his eyes out.Going on a rampage,he locked himself in his room wrecking everything.Then it was fey's turn.He somehow got the msg that I was gone and he immediately froze and didn't accepted the fact.Same as kam,he locked himself and wrecked everything,even himself.I don't know what happened after that but kam and fey showed up at my doorstep with bloodshot eyes hugging and crying with my mom.I was sad but curious,like how other's reacted.^.^ Went to haziq's..He seemed to have found out.As usual,haziq cried his eyes out.Farhan played the cool guy but he still couldn't control his tears.Mad was sniveling real bad.Kinn heard it and immediately fell to a sitting position.Popok got a text from kam thru my phone and she cried.Fathia also.But she was like sad cos she wanted to meet me cos today is her birthday.Emy called coincidentally and found out.Well.Same reaction.Cried.Lastly,I went to Adriah's house.She looked like she got the msg.She was holding her phone.Reading something.My guess is the news of my departure.Check2 she fight with bobo la.. -.- Kimak.I was like PAISEH SIA even though I was a ghost.Haha.Serious.I was like banging my head thru the wall but my head just went thru.Then she got my msg.Her tears stopped.She just froze.Her phone fell from her grasp.I checked her phone to make sure that she was like this because of me.Haha.Yerp.Then she cried.Covered by her pillow,she shouted words.I only hear "egrhjkahsdouahelksg".Bodoh nye bantal!Aku tak dgr!HAHA. I went back home.Kimak.I was walking to my house.Then I saw slippers and shoes.ALOT!.Then i said "Assalamualikum!Woi!Ade kenduri arwah ke?"Then I remembered,ouh yeah. I'm dead.Haha.A lot of people.Chinese SK,ITE bedok,a few exs -.- and my family members.Haha.Suddenly right,I saw my phone,I grabbed it and started to text of what I wanted to tell every body.Then it was Adriah.I texted her.The moment I wanted to press send.Suddenly nicotine urges.Haha.Then I woke up and smoke.Weee. -The End!- FAKE!The weird thing about this dream is,when I woke up,I took my phone and there it was.The text I wanted to send toAdriah was in my phone.Saved as drafts.Time details = 24-3-10 7.55am. 10 mins ago. O.O Seriously,I am a bit freaked out.Haha.I am the first of its kind.SLEEP TEXTER! HEE! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : The masked man wrote, Today is my dear lil Fathia's birthday so HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATTY! You are now legal.Haha.Can buy cigarettes already.Yay! Today,I switched on my lappy and went to fb as usual.Then I saw Miss.M pic and post and I immediately just smiled.Everything from the last sentence onwards has been deleted.It took me half an hour to type.It was really long.But,i read it back and I think to myself that all those words,unnecessary.What I really felt was not important cause no matter how much I say,you reading this blog will just go like "awwwww" then you just switch it off and go to bed relaxed and wake up the next morning going on with what you do daily.If you are really curious of what I wrote,then you can just ask me.If I want to tell you I will,if not then too bad.I'll give you just one clue.Its about my beloved ex.It may be something good,something bad or even both.Hell.I am not revealing anythiing.Like I said,NO PURPOSE. To you:Let me just ask you one simple question.Was your recent post about my previus post or linked in any way? In tis world,we may seem distraught,scared and alone.But there are many people like us feeling the same way.To put it simply,we are NEVER alone. Peter Buscht The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Sunday, March 21, 2010 The masked man wrote, I have never felt so normal these past 2 days.Since I have started to text my ex,you know,Miss Braces.I feel so light.But now that this feeling was shortly replaced with the feeling that I dearly want you back.I feel so lonely right now.When we were texting,I constantly look at my phone to see whether you have texted.Each word in your texts would bring me back a few months ago when I proudly called you mine.What we did.Especially when you replied saying you miss me singing to you,I miss that more.I wont and WILL NEVER sing those songs for anybody else but YOU.NOBODY will be able to replace you.They may look like you,talk like you,love me like you did but simply,they are just not you.I seriously now,just want YOU.Even if you came back with a defect,I will still love you like I did,am and ever will.When you called at that night,hearing your voice,tears just started to trickle down my cheeks.I may sound happy and hyper,but it was all just a ploy.I don't know why,but I have a habit of hiding what my emotions truly are.One of my friends saw tears and I just signalled him to shush.Gosh I really miss you.Only you can set me free of this caged hurt.I hope we meet soon.The minute we meet,I am gonna hold your hands no matter what not wanting to let go,hug you tightly like there's no tomorrow and and kissed you like all those yesterday's we were together. Today,I met up with kinn and fey.They came to my house.I was sleeping and they came.haha.I showered while they wait.Yeah.My issues with kinn weren't actually issues.Just plain misunderstandings.So we went to tam.Hung out at there till 7pm.Haha.Talked a lot.Catched up on each other's life's and all that kinda stuffs.Went to montip to buy some hairband.haha.Then the person there kept looking at fey and kinn as if they were gonna steal.Pfttt.I was just observing her body movements.Damn obvious la HELLO!Dumb chinese crackhole!Then went to the jetty with only fey cos kinn had to go home to finish her homework.She always ah.haha.Then slacked at jetty from 8 till 9.30.Waited for mad but he was a no show so we left.Watched soccer.Man-u vs Liverpool.I don't wanna talk about that. =(  Oh and 1 more thing.I think I'm really going to the bisexual way.Seriously,Fey(my gay bestfren) and I,that saturday night,hot guys were everywhere and we were like melting.haha.I dont mind going bi.But I'm not sure if I am going bi or is it my imagination?And FYI,I am not going bi because the kids nowadays think its cool and trendy and all that shit.Its just that now,I don't think kissing a hot guy is disgusting but its not turning me on either.haha.Well.maybe in the future i'll be more sure. And lastly,I just wanna scream but since you can't scream in a blog,I'll just type what I wanna scream in BIG letters. *words deleted* The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Saturday, March 20, 2010 The masked man wrote, .jpg)   .jpg)    .jpg) Pics were taken when every body but farhan and haziq were not sober.Haha.Had fun.The 2 ppl that were the last mans standng were me and fey.Haha.Even farhan and haziq went to sleep.haha.We did all the crazy stuffs.Shouted like nobody's business.haha.We ran around and made haziq and farhan run along with us.Kam was shouting SOAP all the time.Idk why too.haha.Went to mac.Mad and kam was already like sober.Kam puked like the niagara falls.Haha.Made some chinese drunken frens at mac too.Was screened by cops.Haha.A lot happened.Im just to lazy and hungry to type.Haha. I give you the straight facts,tyr to make you look at the brght side,try to help you.Then you give me that attitude.Walao.I was just trying to help.=( Nvm uh.Do wht you want.=( Just be happy. =(=(=(=( The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Friday, March 19, 2010 The masked man wrote, Just reached home.Freaking tired but I have to send my lil sis to the polyclinic.I know.I'm a loving brother and all.Hee.Anyway,right now,NO MATTER HOW TIRED I AM,I'm sooo happy! Last night,she called.Seriously,I missed that voice and to hear it after 2 fucking long months,I felt so light and happy.From bored and sad,I immediately became happy.We talked and I had probably a 100 flashbacks of us.What flashback?You wanna know?I am gonna tell you..NOT!Haha.I miss her so much. =) She's either sleeping rite now or she's siap-ing to go to malaysia.Hee.Have a safe trip babe.I really wanna meet with you soon. Yeah.I know.Its been a while since my posts have been happy.Now it is.Thanks to her.Come to think of it,only she can make me truly smile. =) With love, ~Mr Mayday~ Will update again when I wake up.Which is probably gonna be....tomorrow morning at 1am i think... HANGOVER! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Thursday, March 18, 2010 The masked man wrote, Went to aljunied to meet Kiki.Yeah.She fetched me and she led me to the workplace.Met Fifi.She was skinny but oh so hot.Then met Baha.Damn he's cool and so handsome!The interview started and blablabla.End of interview.Baha and me went for a smoke.Hee.Then went home.Changed and slacked at jetty with the regulars.Then went home.I apologise if this update might sound boring because I have no mood to blog.I had but not now.It all went poof.Reason? Switched on the com and saw your post on Fb.I really missed you.The minute I saw your post,my heart sank revealing how much I have truly deeply missed you.Then,as usual,my mind and heart gets confused.Questions are popping in my head as fast as the wind blows.
Oh yeah.Tomorrow,CHALET!Blablabla.Lazy to type.TON!  On rainy days,I feel no difference.Cos when you went,you took the sun with you.Everyday without you,I sulk in the rain.I shiver quietly desperately needing your hug.My heart felt as if it has just stop working.My legs,they won't start walking.So please,be a dear will ya?Can you please bring back the sun with you next time you come back?I don't need the sun actually.I just need you. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : The masked man wrote,  The pic that tagged remove..AGAIN! WTF! TAGGED SUCK! SERIOUSLY! K im Bored! Bye2! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Wednesday, March 17, 2010 The masked man wrote,  Day by day,I grow weaker,bit by bit.The pain has seeped through my veins.Dying in silence,I can't scream.I can't shout for help.My legs grow tired from walking for hope.My hands grow tired from prolonged grip of faith.I'm fighting a losing war.My will to survive is evaporating into dusts,blown away with the winds.Trust was thrown out of the window.The friction of this fall is crippling me.A last blow is all I can afford.One last bullet is all I have. The artist in me wrote this. Anyway,back to life.I'm going to a job interview tomorrow at aljunied.Thank you kiki for pulling those strings for me.Much appreciated.
The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Monday, March 15, 2010 The masked man wrote, Today,damn tiring.Me and Farhan took a bus to pasir ris.Hah.Then from there we jogged there.Haha.Anyway.Had fun.Went home.God DAMN!My legs are lifeless.Hah.I know I am gonna wake up tomorrow with leg cramps.Hah.I was at home.Chatting with my dearest POK POK as usual.Mp4 volume maxed,cos my com's speaker was having a mind of its own.Well.I was happily chatting.Then suddenly,BAM.The song Your Guardian Angel came on then I started to think of her.That song has a certain meaning to me cos THAT was the song I sang for her.So there I was singing the song,sad and missing her.The song was over.I was kinda sad but not that sad.Then the song I'm Yours by The Script came on.I immediately plunged into a world of sadness.Surrounded by walls playing memories of her.Argh.I don't know. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Sunday, March 14, 2010 The masked man wrote,  I feel so stressed up.I feel so cornered.I don't know what I need to do.I don't know what am I doing.I feel so useless.I feel so dead.I am jobless.I don't know if I am going to higher nitec.I constantly have disturbing dreams about her which makes me miss her more.I feel as if a whole truck is right above me and the only thing that is preventing it from crashing down on me is a stick.I don't have a life anymore.I wake up and go to sleep.Like I am waiting for death to come knocking on my door.The walls are collapsing on me.My friends,they don't know what I am going through therefore I can't possibly ask them for help.Who am I suppose to cry on?My family?I have to be strong for them.I have to keep up this act.I can't let ANYONE see that I am crumbling deep inside.My health isn't helping that much.I feel really sick.I don't know whether that I am really sick or is it just my mind and body giving up on me.What is happening to me?I don't know.But the happy smiling me is right now at the moment very very far away. Dear god, Help my family,and I promise that you can take me.I don't mind.Really.Please?    Anyway,POKPOK has really been helping me cos basically,she's the only one I am talking to.Literally the only one.Thank you so much POKPOK.Love you so much my baby POKPOK!*hugs*Happy our paths crossed. =)  My DEAREST POKPOK! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Saturday, March 13, 2010 The masked man wrote,  Today,practically nothing much interesting happened.Its 4+am and Im still awake.I guess I can't sleep.Oh yeah.Pok is online so she's basically the cutie pie i'm chatting with right now cos the others i bet are snoring or humping somebody i don't know.Oh yeah.I'm going to the gym later.Fey's idea.I must go cos Fey really want me to go.Hah. Oh and the guy in the pic.My all time fav wrestler.Woohoo!Forever a Jeff Hardy/Extreme Enigma fan.Ah huh! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Friday, March 12, 2010 The masked man wrote, I don't know what to say.Maybe this pictures will know what I want to say.           The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Thursday, March 11, 2010 The masked man wrote, This year,2010,has been a totally whole new life for me.Since 2010 has started,I have been seeing more nights than day.I'll be up till 8am.Sleep through the whole day.Then waking up at nightfall.Heh.Guess I am a truly certified owl.But 2010 hasn't been well for me.Reason?I don't have her.Heartbreaks happen again and again.When they happen,I would almost immediately think of her,missing those times we spent together.Guess I haven't got over her.Well.I think I am gonna make this post a short one.I wanna lie on my bed and think thru what I have done in my life with every breath that was presented. Goodnite my beautiful soul. Goodnite my mysterious mind. Goodnite my ever bleeding heart. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Wednesday, March 10, 2010 The masked man wrote,  YES! I just woke up.I woke up realising there were tears on my cheeks.Checked my pillow to find that its wet.I was confused of what I had dreamt earlier on.Then it struck me.Everything I dreamt,I remembered.Then I regretted remembering.It was everything I did with Miss Adriah Calista.All jumbled into one dream.All those happy days.The words she described me.The words I described her.Sweet texts sent to and fro.Missing each other every second.Jokes we told each other.Pranks we played on each other.Arguements we had.The sweet kisses sent and received.Comfortable hugs presented and accepted.The way we appreciate one another.The way we compliment us.Loud laughters anywhere we go.The time we enjoyed. It was a dream filled with BOTH happiness and heartache. Yes I thought I have moved on.I fell for in fact 2 girls.But,it seems I was wrong.Seems my mind and heart don't see eye to eye.  Earlier today,I went to montiq at tam.I bought the black coloured hairband.It has a deep meaning for me.I guess maybe it being on my wrist when I went to sleep triggered deep memories.I keep smelling it.Hoping to smell your perfume on it.Well.Who am I kidding. =( The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Tuesday, March 9, 2010 The masked man wrote, Just came back from jetty.Hung out with kam and mad.Its been a while since I've hung out with kam.I missed ya bro!Hah.Well.We talked about all kinds of stuffs.Updating each of us with what's been happening in our lives.Ouh yeah.Received fafa's text.Hah.Okae.Goodbye fafa.=).Anyway,the irony of life.I was texting Adriah telling her about something which doesn't concerns any of you people.Then fafa texted me.haha.Imagine that.Was happy to know that Adriah is doing well and that she's trying hard to concentrate.Go Adriah.Hee.Then fafa texted me.Hah.I didn't cared.Strange.Well,the human mind is a strange thing.Then I didn't wanted to bother Adriah cos she was studying.Hey!I'm not that selfish okay.Studying is my number one priority...FOR MY FRENS.Not me!Na uh!Hah.Then texted Pok!But she was busy with her sis.Understooded.So was hanging out when we saw a group of guys with bikes.Obviously stolen bikes.Hah.Experience helps in identifying.Then we went to 7-11 cos we were out of sticks.Saw those bunch of guys again.I won't want to elaborate on what they were doing cos...haha.Anyway..*Skips till its time to go home*,went home.Mom wasn't sleeping.I was like OH SHIT!.haha.Confirm she scold me.Haha.And she did.Nyeheh.Oh yeah.I was cleaning the kitchen with my music on max(earpiece) when I felt this cooling sensation.I didn't know what it was.I felt calmed.I looked out of the window and literally said "Hey friend,I missed you.And nice timing dude!Hee." It was raining.Yes.I love the rain. I know you all might be wondering what the hell happened(Skipped part of my night).Haish.Lets just say I've disappointed my family and my frens. Oh yeah.Going to Tampines stadium later.To accompany Haziq.Maybe.I'm not sure.Cos it wet and I don't know if its cancelled.haha.I'm not going to the stadium to accompany Haziq.I have ulterior motives.Ahyeen knows what I'm talking about.She just needs to remember what exactly.Matreps and minahs of Northlight.Good Luck.You'll be hating me anyways.haha.  Sorry to those who care for me. =) And Luke,I AM YOUR FATHER! HAHA! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Sunday, March 7, 2010 The masked man wrote,  Today hasn't been a smooth day for me.Although nothing went wrong,nothing went my way.Haish.My mind is now clouded with thought of you.Dark clouds floating above my head on what you might be thinking of me,cos that day we met,let's just say our meet up was fun.Yes it was fun but to a point when we met our friend,my heart was shattered.Heh.I seriously couldn't reach home without shedding a tear.Well.What matters is that you had fun and we left without guilt in you that you have made me sad.I have fallen for you.I have tried in many ways possible to convince you that I am right in front of you and that maybe you should give me a chance but it seems it isn't enough.Well.I miss you.I wanted to text you but I somehow knew your prepaid was already low.Haish. This weird but similar feeling is making me unable to sleep. I need to wake up earlier than usual tomorrow cos I'm going for a swim with Farhan and Mad at Tampines.They wanted to go at some other further places but I didn't.Ouh yeah.Emy might be joining us.Haha. The good thing about being underwater is,no one can hear your screams and see your tears of sorrows. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Saturday, March 6, 2010 The masked man wrote, OMG!I gave into temptation.Argh!I'm sorry to those that I promised I would stop. =( Ah shit!.But still,ARGH!Fuck fcuk fkuc!Why must it appear in front of me when my self esteem is at its lowest point?!I bet when I wake up later,I am so gonna have a ginormous..... HANGOVER!! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Friday, March 5, 2010 The masked man wrote, Wow!This is gonna be a long post cos A LOT of thing happened. Mad and farhan went to my house while I changed as we went to clarke quay. Went to have our breakfast/lunch at Macs.Haha.It was around 1.15pm so school was over and the girls were all over the place.Hah.We did what came naturally to us.INSULT EVERY MOTHERFUCKING LIFESPIRIT BAG PERSON.Haha.No mercy.Even sec one and twos were laughed at.Ouh yeah.A bunch of girls checked ALL of us out.Haha.Well.We are out of your league girls.Haha.Kidding. Took the mrt.Haha.The ride there felt so freaking long man.Farhan suddenly showed me that his phone had the song "Party in the USA".Haha.My mp4 had it too.Don't ask why.I'd rather miley cyrus than mr justin bieber.So on the count of 3,we played our song in syc.Hah.Then we danced to the song.Everybody was looking at us.But pfft.Like we cared.Hah.We put our hands up.We moved our hips.Haha.Then we reached clarke quay. We saw the entrance to the place.It was literally beside burger king.Anyways,I asked them whether they wanna smoke first before entering thinking that once we go in,it might be awhile before we can go out again.So yeah.Smoking session started.And it ended.We went into the entrance.Had to call the person to open the door for us.Haha.The door was locked.Need a staff thingy to enter.We went up to the 12th floor.Went into the room.A lot of people (less than 10) was there,sitting and waiting,occupying ALL the bloody seats.So after we wrote our particulars at the forms given,we went down and windowshopped. Okae.We didn't windowshopped at all.Haha.We went outside for a smoke.K shhh.I know.Then took some pics.Then saw a 2 girls then blablablabla.Dont want to talk about that.Haha.Shhh.Then went back up to the room.Haha.Was still filled.Suddenly,I turned around.Saw mad was already at the end of the corridor.In my head,my mind was like "Alamak dekni!Ade2 jek taw!Aku nak join!".So I did.Followed by farhan.Mad saw a fire lobby escape.So we went up.Changed our minds when we reached the roof and realised that the roof didn't looked like a place where we were supposed to be at.Haha. So we kid around at the corridor.Made jokes and stuffs.Haha.When I was about to check with the girl at the counter how long was our turn gonna be,my phone rang.The girl that was RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME,called me.But she didn't see me.Haha.I was like "Hey hi!I am right in front of you!See me waving!".She laughed.Our turn was up next.Oh yeah!This girl was so freaking hot.She's chinese as usual.haha.Psssssst! Pukimak penat pe type! The three of us went together.This china girl interviewed us.Was quite interesting actually.But sadly,we had to pay....I'll just skip that part cos I am so disappointed. =( Anyway,the girl who was interviewing us..Ouh my dee ai see kae..She kept saying mad was cute.OVER AND FUCKING OVER AND AGAIN.Haha.In my mind I was going like "Okae.You can take him home.IF you lets us join without paying.Haha." And and she somehow does not like to swallow her saliva.When she was talking to us,the three of us could see her saliva in her mouth.Eeeyuck! So we went home via mrt AGAIN but this time sad. =( Anyway,was in the mrt when this malay guy,he was sitting at the designated seats for the old,pregnant and injured.He was playing a psp.And in front of him,there was this old chinese male and female.OMG!He kept quiet.As if he didn't bring his brain out of his ass just now.Anyways,a not so old auntie gave up her seat for the poor old ah ma.And the kid still didn't move.-_-Oh.The kid was at least 18 years dumb. Anyway,i was pissed so I shouted out loud these few sentences I think. "Eh BODOH!Tak tawu diri pe?Kasi orang tue ddk ah sia" He kept quiet. "Kimak!Prangai sial sia!Ah ni la one of the reasons aku tak minat sgt ngan org melayu.Prangai mcm puki ia.Mintak kene rembat sia!Babi peh melayu! Then farhan tapped on his shoulder and asked him to stand.He did.Like wtf.Ouh.Just because he has muscles and I don't.Fuck you.I bet I can win against you in a round in less than 5 mins.Punk ass malay. Went home.Play half life at sk with farhan and mad till 7.30pm(we started playing at 6.30pm) Then we went home.Did what was neccessary.Then went down for a jog at the reservoir.We met at my block at 9pm.Haziq joined us.We jogged and jogged.As usual,Im always at the back.Mad in fron of me.Followed by Haziq then Farhan.Haha.Then my hands started to be tired as i am posting on what has happened today.Nyahaha..Anyway..These are some of the pics we took at clarke quay.Ouh and the edits are all done by me cos I was SOO GOOD DAMN BORED! HAHA.    To my dearest Nur Fateha binte A... I miss you.I think I am in love with you.I know I need you. Anyway,I have this one thing that makes me think of you.You remembered you bite me when you found out that I...Haha..Yeah.Its now blue black.Haha.But only one. =( Hurhur.Good nite Cintaah <3 The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Thursday, March 4, 2010 The masked man wrote, Yesterday,went to meet Fafa.HEEEE!Can't go into details but after that,met ahyeen.Walao eh!Damn hot man!The weather I mean.Was sweating quite actually.Well..Then a lot of things happen that I DON'T want to blog cos.... Well... Hah!Still not gonna blog about it.Anyway,reached home at about 8pm.Otf with ahyeen and I'm sorry AhyeenSykes and HaziqScreams that I wasn't my usual self otf.Not the usual chatterbox and hyperactive happy self.Heh.They know why.Hah.Anyway,sometime last night,the modelling agency that approached me,mad and farhan called me.They asked me to go for an interview.Fuyoooh!heh.Ouh and it's a clarke quay.So gonna be going to clarke quay later.Crap!I don't know what to wear. -.-" Ouh.I love you Cinta! ^.^ The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Wednesday, March 3, 2010 The masked man wrote, Its 2.30am.I just woke up.Arh!I wanted to wake up at 10am.Why so early i wake up sia?Haish.And somemore Fafa texted me.Like fuck sia.Why always she text me I sleep la,no prepaid laa? Erh!Dumb me!Oh Oh.Waking up this early made me realise something, I am HUNGRY! Got Alesana concert in my stomach.With a lot of moshing action. -.^  The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Tuesday, March 2, 2010 The masked man wrote,  Nyahaha...I miss her.I miss her very very much.Truly very much.Heh.I just can't stop but to think at Mr Oreo's chalet.What we did.Heh.What we talked about.And I soo love the part where you started to bite me cos I won in a debate with you.Hah.And and... I elle ouh vee eee you.  This was taken when I was bored and decided to go to the reservoir.Heh.The feeling of the morning sun and the breeze was just breath taking.With my ear piece on full blast,I sat down there.Then I suddenly could start thinking properly.Everything I could see clearly.The clean air helped I guess.But only one thing still bothers me.I don't know what's going on in your head.Usually I do with other people.But not you.I guess that is what pulls my attention to you. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : The masked man wrote, Today is just not the right day for me..Well..I'm just lost for words.My mind just not thinking right.I feel that people just don't appreciate me for what I am.But what am I to do?What CAN I do?Sometimes,I really wish I could talk to god face to face.So we can really talk.He's god so basically he knows EVERYTHING I am doing,feeling and going thru.It will be like I am talking to myself,just that my other self speaks back. Just met my uncle.Damn.I really miss him.Since he moved out,I have no one to talk to.He's one of the people that I can comfortably talk to without fear of any kind.We talked and hung out.Had fun.I miss you so much Suf! I don't know why you replied my text the way that you did.It hurts me soo much.Now I am so freaking confused.My heart was pounding like a motorboat when I read your text.We can't text.We can't communicate.And when I wanna meet you,you tell me that.Like what are you trying to tell me?Just tell me already.I hate guessing games.Haish.I am so down right now but still,I can't hide the fact that I miss you. ='( The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Monday, March 1, 2010 The masked man wrote,  Currently texting Irarey POK!..Haha...Well..We both bored so we entertaining each other.haha.by saying a lot of crap..Nyaha..She's kinda cute anyways..Haha..Guys,be freaking jealous cos I have a lot of hot friends.Haha..Dont even get me started with the list.haha.Well.Im quite bored now cos Miss POK is watching her THAI show.Dont ask me.I am as clueless as you.Wait.Maybe she watching iron ladies.Or maybe beautiful boxer.Or maybe Ong bak.haha..Beats me.She also got blog about me at her post.haha.Links rite there..haha.Check it out! To my dearest Love:I miss you so much.Today.The one in my head was you.Every single sec.Well..Not when I was doing my smelly business in the bathroom...ARGH! you get my point.Love ya! Sweetdreams my lil angel.Muacks. REBLOGGED I love you! HEH! Goodnight wonderful creatures and good morning beautiful earthlings The mask is what separates me from being normal.
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