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Dated : Monday, May 24, 2010 The masked man wrote, My dearest lil sis ain,what's going on in your life?I may not be your blood brother but we grew up together.I treat and love you like my own sister.I don't know why you did what you did on fb but it really hurts me.You're now giving me the cold shoulder.Why?When your family was almost giving up on you,I was the one who convinced them that you are gonna change.I heard talks about you getting worse and not schooling anymore.Believe me,I was the most disappointed.Ibu and papa i bet was disappointed too.I'm really worried about you adek.You have become more wilder.The rest may not accept it but I do.That's just you.Everytime when I heard news about you,my heart would keep saying "No.That's bullshit!She's my little sister.People change.She'll change.I know so." Day by day you didn't.I love you adek.My love for you little sis will not change but my confidence for a change in you is deteriorating. I still remember years ago when you were only 5.You and me,we will be together walking everywhere.At genting,we took an amusement ride.You sat next to me.I was scared but you cried as the ride continued.I hugged you,coaxing you.I really wish that we were back then.When you,yan,hudah,me,shafie,wani,mama,papa,ibu were all together happy with smiles.I really missed you adek.Seriously,I do.I miss spending time with you.Being happy. Being disappointed never helps.Being teary never helps.I'm trying my best to still have that glimpse of hope that you'll come back one day as the ain you were. Cute,happy with that cute smile you always have on your fat face. I know she'll never read this since she doesn't have my blog link but somehow,I hope she does. Forever your brother. Rifaie ='((((( The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Sunday, May 23, 2010 The masked man wrote,     Pictures above.These pics were taken at different places and timings.The pic on the first was taken on the first day we met.The last is the most current pic taken. .Notice that we are smiling in every single picture. Notice that I am hugging her in every single picture. Pictures indeed say a thousand words. These pictures however don't say a thousand words. They just show simple reasons why I love her very much. They just show how much I love her. This time,I won't type what I want to post. I'll just let you people read these pictures' words. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Tuesday, May 18, 2010 The masked man wrote, Today is one of the best days in my life yet with baby.Met baby at my void deck at about 2pm.We then took a bus to sengkang int.I saw bad there but she didn't see me.Haha.Saw one of her frens though.She still could regconise me even when I'm bald.Haha.Then mama called and said that she already reached causeway.I panicked cos I didn't wanted to make mama wait so we took a cab to causeway point.Reached and met mama.Went to eat at swensens.I ordered the sirloin steak.The pic showed that the steak covered 3/4 of the plate.When I got the steak,it didn't even filled half of the plate.Asshole! haha. Baby ordered something chicken something pasta. Haha.The way she cut the chicken,DAMN CUTE sia! She looked soo clumsy.One of the reasons why I am in love with her..She isn't afraid to show her real self. Mama ordered something fish.I don't know laa.Haha.Finished the food then came dessert.Mama and baby ate the gold rush while I ate sticky chewy chocolate.Sedap! Haha.So full already yet mama bought some chocolates for me and a mocha frappe from mcafe. Wow! haha.Then went to AP! ^^ Hee.Then talked,joked around,had fun and smoked and annoyed each other.Haha. I really love my wife.I really really do.Nothing I can say will tell you people how much I really love her.Haha. Time for my medications.Oh yeah.Going back to camp first thing in the morning.Fuck! Ass! CIBAI! Haha ! The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Saturday, May 15, 2010 The masked man wrote, I miss my baby a lot.Like never this much.Today I did something I couldn't even imagine doing this early.Remember that there was this post where I wrote that I bought a black hairband.My ex badriah had one exactly like that too.So I bought it cos I really missed her.Today,I sat at the reservoir jetty silently and threw that band away.I felt a huge load of my shoulders.The pain felt as if it never existed.The agony,suffering...Poof.Gone.Why? Cos I have moved on with somebody whom I want to have a future with.I love my baby a lot.Thank you baby.I'm a lot stronger now.Thanks to you.I love you.Muacks. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
Dated : Friday, May 14, 2010 The masked man wrote, Back from my two weeks confinement.Met baby.The minute I saw her,I wanted to cry.I sat a distance away from her.Smoked some cigsto cool myself down.When the tears went away,i went closer.Saw her and hugged her.Acted cool but believe me.If it was just me and her,I would already have broken down.Walked around.Seriously,I was bored out of my wits.If it wasnt my baby and it was one of my exs,ask them what I would do,Id just walk off.But I didnt.Reason is that I miss her alot.I love her.When its time we part our ways,I was sad.Usually I would be sad but just now.I was devastated that I couldn't meet her for another week.Went in the bus and sat at the 2nd level at the most back seat.I cried.Call me a wimp.I know Im just a person with feelings.Typing this post constantly wiping my keyboard of tears trickling from my cheeks,eyes bloodshot red and realising that this love is unlike any other. Wanna know something? Just now,I wanted to count all of my exs.I took me quite some time but I managed to count them all,Then I remembered what every single one of them did to me.Hurt me,used me,lied to me,double timed me,then baby was on my mind.I just imagined what if......she suddenly called me and told me bad news.My heart seriously skipped a beat,I stopped breathing for a while,in devastation and awe.Then I knew how much I love her.Believe me when I tell all of you this.All of you have experienced love.Yes heartbreaks come often.But have you ever felt that you know he/she is gonna be your forever after? Would you give your life in exchange for hers/his? If I tell you that I know then thatll be a bunch of hippo crap.Future can't be predicted.But I know one thing.I AM SURE that I want to spend the rest of my life with her.I AM READY to give my life in exchange for hers.You may say its bullshit.But let me tell you this,if you say this is bullshit and Im just spouting nonsense,then you have never experienced true love.It WILL happen to you.Just the matter of when and where. The worst shall come and I will still be holding your hand. The storm will pour and I'll be keeping you warm. It may be cloudy but I'll make sure its a sunny day. You might fall but you'll fall on me. To my dearest amira: .... I'm speechless.  Simply because I love you just isn't enough. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
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