Boredom is like striking me every single day.It sucks.Yesterday is one of the only days that Ive had fun since school ended.Seriously.I really would like to turn back time and go back to school.Ill be able to meet my frens again.My teachers again.Undo all those stupid mistakes I did.
Regain those tears wasted.Un-shatter my heart.But somebody sweet told me these words."No point regretting,live ur ass life,tally"I wont say her name la cos it would be like.......ZZZZAAAAAZZZZAAA!!!!!Hahaha...Kinda true..So I wont dwell in the past.Shall look forward.Cos if I look back,I may walk straight into a wall.Ouch!Hahaha.Oh yeah.My bro bought a new phone.So jealous!Hahaha..I dont know what model.Its nokia.Like kam's phone.So he gave me his old phone.Thanks bor.I love you.Even though we curse and fight almost everyday.Hahha.I may not say this out loud(cos I know if I did,your reply would be "You fucking gay asshole!"hahaha)but I love you.I may be an asshole at times.I may be the greatest jerk you ever know.But I love you!hahaha..Oh yeah..Mom told me this incident that my sis had yestd and just now.My sis was otw home when 2 girls from bedok north sec stared at her.My sis told me that she stared back with her angry face.Hahah.Fierce sia.She stared at them till both turned their heads around..And my mom was like telling me of who she reminded of..ME!And the irony is,she's now sec 2.The same age that I started my nonsense.ahah.I know la..She is becoming more like me.I only want her to get those good attributes of mine.Like independance and able to take care of herself.I dont want her to get any of my bad ones.You know.Lying,smoking,late nights,not home at times.Those days when I was quite bad.Yeah.I pray to god that she dont.Hee!Like wow!Just realised how all grown up my sis and bro are.Bro,17 and sis,14.Hahaha.

And haziq,Im sorry I threw your wallet back at you.Its just that I hate when you go on your mood swings.It really irritates me to the core.I was just kidding.And then you threw your wallet cos I was teasing you of how rich you are.Like wtf?!So I threw your wallet straight at you back.You knw me.I am a straight forward no bullshit person if I really love you.You apologised to me cos you cursed me when I threw back your wallet.If I was those stupid normal people like I wont say who,I would have said like "heh!Tawu pn takot!" but I AM NOT!So here I am apologising to you.Im sorry.I really regretted acting the way I was just now.But I had to cos sometimes,your too sensitive.In life,being to sensitive is bad.Might as well just strap a sign saying mr sensitive on your forehead.I want you to build your own barrier.So that you wont go through what I did all those years ago.Falling that many times and unable to tell my family as that would make them more stressful and/or they might not understand.Had to learn to stand up all alone.Imagine how many times I fell.Too many.Cos I wasnt that much socialable those days.So haziq,I hope you get my point.If you do,thank god.If you dont then YOU STUPID FUCK!hahaha.Love you my hardcore bro!

To these few "people":We know you all hate us.Well,we hate you all more.but when you're bored,you search for us.Like wtf?!What do you think we are?Friends for rent?!Assholes.Seriously,YOU PEOPLE DISGUSTS ME!The kind of people I hate the most are bloody hypocrites,lying fucks and fanatic one of a kind bitches!Your kind.The moment you guys came just now,I was like WTF?!.Come on.Please.DumbFUCK!You hate us,we hate you.You show faces of anger and hate to us,we just simply smile.Haha.Cos your anger and hate aint affecting us.Your harsh words and sharp insults will just be in vain.We are the happy group.Positivity is our game.The fact that you're badmouthing about us behind our backs just proved one thing.You cant get us out of your head.Awww.So sweet.Hahaha.Later get diabetes.Hahaa.And you're angry at us because ?still cant figure that out.Hahaha.

Creating a band.Idk how well itll work but trying is better than not at all.Haha

• Haziq-Screamer


• Raf and Farhan-Guitarists


• Mad-drummer


• Fey-Bass


• Me-keyboardists

Well,Ive written like 10 songs already.Haha.The minute boredom strikes,SONGWRITING TIME!hahaha.Guess Ill be useful in the band writing for them songs.Yeah.Me the songwriter!WoooO!

1. God's not listening


2. I'm guilty but I want more


3. Your twisted truth


4. My bitter sweet guilt


5. Whoever said love is real,FUCK YOU


6. Death is what I wished for you on my bdae


7. Die for all I care


8. You're hot,You're a LUNATIC!


9. My smile is all you see when you close your eyes


10. Race to the rainbow

Yeah.I did all these songs.But I dont know how to sing it.Hahaha.We'll see how.

Had a dream about you yestd.Hahaha.Like yes ah!Haha.Shhhh..Cant reveil too much.Cos its like.......Hahahha.

*Your bitter sweet words stuck in my head*

The mask is what separates me from being normal.