God!Why am I not like those evil guys?Why can't I stop feeling guilty?WHY THE HELL DID SHE HAVE TO BRING HER FATHER OUT?!Haish.Know I really regretted what I did.KNOW I REALLY WISHED A CAR HAD CRASHED INTO ME EARLIER!So that I won't be able to hurt that poor girl's heart.Seriously.God.If you have internet connection wherever you at,do a few favours for me.

1. Make it as if I dont exist in this world.
2. Take care of my family.
3. Make sure everybody that Ive ever known bad or good,get one wish fufilled.
4. Exchange my existance with someone who is better in every possible way.

If you fufill these conditions,then I will be soo happy.

Why did I do that?Why was I so heartless?Why was I reacting that way?Why was I having fun?Why was I not caring?Why was I not wearing my mask?Why was I so angry?Why was I so fired up?ARGH!

I know "you" are watching my every move.I somehow know that you are crying,sad that I did what I did.Angry too.Well.If what I asked for happens,I WILL AGAIN BE A HAPPY BOY!I will have the opportunity to hear you scold me,nag and even beat me with a belt(rarely) like you used to.After that I can sleep at your arms once again,peacefully.And rub your rough chin against my cheeks again.I dont care if you scold me for a century,Ill still be happy cos Im with you.