Sorry ahyeen for lying and thanks for telling.Appreciate it.This was expected.I knew things can not go my way.haha.Sad.Haish.haish.haish.But what can I do?Shit happens.All I CAN do is smile and hope **** is happy.Cos in life......Umm..No mood for quotes.Guess I should take the option that my mom gave me to go n stay with my grand aunt at holland(netherlands).Yeah.Maybe I will.haha.Anyway,this place isnt making me feel normal anymore.Kinda sad.Haha.nevertheless,I think I should start packing my bags.Cos end of the month is coming.And that's the time money is abundant.But I'll be leaving my family,my friends here.Kinda sux.If I go,then I wont say goodbye.I hate goodbyes.I will just dissapear.Haha.Sorry guys.I really hope I can go.Really hope.So that means Ill be back only after winter ends which is like end of march.Haha.Then I'll miss a lot of events planned here.Going to fake eyelash gig with haziq and the gang.Haziq's chalet.My party plans on feb.A lot of bdae's will be missed.I dont know uh.Ive been talking about going but never had the right opportunity to go.


I'm just sick and tired of putting on that mask.I am tired of faking a smile.I am tired of looking at the bright side.I am tired of making others smile when I cant.I am tired of cheering others up when I am truly down.I am tired of being psyched up.I am tired of being misrable.I am tired of being crappy.I am tired of being hopeless.I am tired of being sad.I am tired of tearing up.I am tired of trust.I am tired of the sun.I am tired of getting my hopes dashed.I am tired of being lied to.I am tired of hope.I am tired of love.I am tired of lying.I am tired of hate.I am tired of dissapointment.I am tired of not getting what I want.I am tired of getting hurt.I am tired of sitting in the dark.I am tired of being nice.I am tired of doing good things.I am tired of doing bad things.I am tired of repeated events in a different scenario.I am tired of waking up hopeless.I am tired of waiting.I am tired of my acts that dissapoint the ones I love.I am tired being lonely.I am tired of being friendly.I am tired of insults.I am tired of praises.I am tired of fooling around.I am tired of trying.I am tired of him.I am tired of her.I am tired of life.I am tired of how life is going.

The mask is what separates me from being normal.