Things I miss about you
I miss
1.Your presence
2.Your love
3.Your smile
4.Your laughter
5.Your touch
6.The times when you look at me and just smile and not say anything
7.The way you keep me warm by hugging me so tightly
8.The times we wasted on the phone at night.
9.The way you laugh at my jokes no matter how lame they sound
10.The sweet messagges you sent me
11.Hearing you say those "3" words
12.That you keep reminding me that you'll never leave me no matter what I did
13.the good morning messages that you never fail to send every morning
14.the way you make me feel oh so secured everytime i'm with you
15.the way you would smell my shoulder cos you like the way I smelt
16.the way you bright up my darkest days by trying your best to make me smile
17.when you would pinch or beat me if I made a joke that was kinda bad
18.you telling me what happened on that day everyday
19.how fast you would tell the story and how i would stop you and end up laughing
20.arguing with you about justin bieber
21.telling you how my day went
22.the way your lips would tenderly touch mine
23.your bracey smile(ALOT)
24.singing to you(especially the song "your guardian angel" by red jumpsuit apparatus
25.tickling you
26.hugging you and never letting you go
27.sending you those sweet long texts
28.missing you goodnite with pure love in it
29.eating cup noodles with you
30.you checking my phone each time we meet
31.reading the sweet things you wrote about me at your blog
32.just sitting by you and wishing it would never end
33.how my problems would just disappear just like that the minute i hear your voice
34.telling each other what we dreamt of
35.how you would try to lie just to keep me from getting mad(i know)
36.how you would spot my lies as if I'm a transparent piece of glass
37.the way you would try to get me to finish what I talked about if I just like said "ummm...Nvm..."
38.the way you would rub your eyes due to your contacts being irritating
39.the way you looked if you were mad at someone
40.the way you would look at me if you would catch me lying
41.sending you to school
42.telling you to eat if you had skipped your meal
43.the way you're perfume smelt
44.how you would never wanna lose on how much you love me eg. "when I say that i love you then you say you love me more"
45.being the guy you would gladly call yours
46.being missed by you
47.how hard you would grip my hand
48.topping up for you just so that I could text you
49.how you would be soo cute complaining to me about your injuries due to your volleyball training
50.BASICALLY,I MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU


These are only what seemed to be only half of what I could type whilst trying to hold back my tears and while hearing those songs I sang for you that very day.I really love you.My life is now in total calamity without you.If you think that I'm lying,then I beg you to believe me cos tears dont lie..I don't know what god is trying to show me but i feel like as if I'm not crying alone cos its starting to drizzle.What is that suppose to mean?Nur badriah binte ayub...I WILL and always love you..No matter how much I may sound or look as if I don't,deep inside I still love you.My love for you is still the same since that fateful day 05/01/10..I may wake up feeling new and fresh but each night,I can't help but keep quiet while looking at those pics we took together.EVerynight without fail,my tears will trickle down my cheeks uncontrollably and without me realising.As hurt as I may be,I don't know why but I feel that I'm soo incomplete.Each time I hear justin bieber's songs,my heart would immediately feel as if its been turned inside out and has stopped beating.My mood will suddenly be so sad.No matter how happy I was.It STILL AND WILL plunge me into a world of pure darkness.Cos you are and still am my light.I'm now stuck in a tunnel and I need you to guide me outside to feel the sun's warmth on my skin again.To be able to see colours.To be able to taste food once again.To be able to be entertained by music again...I never wanted to let go.I just wanna know could I ever get the chance to hold you once again,I wish that you're with me once again.Could I hold you for a lifetime?Could I look into your eyes again?Could I have your kiss forever?

The mask is what separates me from being normal.