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Dated : Monday, January 4, 2010 The truth. The masked man wrote, This is the first time for me that something other than love interfered in my relationship...But it was important..My heart is shatterred right now cos I can't live without you..I'm sorry I lied but I'm not okae..I said lets just be friends cos you needed to concentrate on your studies..My heart was already crying..I just can't see you break down in front of me...The last thing I would like to see was to see you cry...It kills me soo deeply...The moment you boarded the bus..I immediately regretted that I spend my last moments with you that way...I guess misery just can't let me go..When I boarded my bus,tears started to gush like Niagra Falls...I don't care if people was watching.I just couldn't believe it..Its over..Something soo wonderful ended just like that..When I left my stuff with you(my wristband,jacket and my mp4)it means that I never want you to forget me..Cos I SWEAR to god I wont..I was crying in the bus soo bad that I think I dozed off..When I woke up,I checked my phone whether you texted me..Then a huge load of hurt came crashing down on me.Like a bunch of daggers raining over me..I cried again..I seriously wanna end my hopeless life..No use..He's never looking out for me.What have I ever done to you?People ask me to trust you but how am I suppose to?You never give me hope.YOu never show me that you're there..I know I'm going to hell for this but I don't give a fuck!As you've heard me say before,"LET APOCALYPSE COME,I WILL STILL LOVE HER!Now I've seriously lost my way without her.I checked my phone seeing the text you gave me for our first month anniversary.. "Happy first mnth anni b.I love you so much.U do know that you're the kind I've been searching for,and i don't ever wish to lose you.No matter what happens,my love for you wont and WILL NEVER fade.Even if I need to sacrifice myself for you,I will cause you're mine and would'nt want anything to happen to you.I love you,I treasure every second with you,I want to be with you till the end.I love you b.Muuuaaacks!" I couldn't stop crying.I just wished that you could be with me till the end.FUCK LIFE!Its never fair..To anybody who says life is,FUCK YOU!I'm now waiting for kam to appear cos only he understands.Now my life has no meaning anymore.No reason to be living.No hope to live for. Every time I close my eyes,memories gushed thorugh...Memories of us first kissing,hugging...The first time we met...The time we spent on the phone..You laughing at all my jokes even though some of them were'nt funny...I treasure evrything I had with you...You made a deep footprint in the sand in my heart..And thanks for making this messed up guy happy for once..I forever will and always love you..You are truly my one and only.. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
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