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Dated : Thursday, January 28, 2010 The masked man wrote, Went to accompany mum and sis to bugis to buy some stuff..Halfway mom told me that if I'm bored I can go join my friends cos I told them that I might have plans tdae.So called zam and he fetched me at bugis.Haha..He called me last night saying that he wants me to join him to this thingy laa at sentosa..I dont know what at that time.So when I reached there,the first person I saw was fazlin,my ex when I was only sec 2.Geeky days.She was too.But now I was like woah!.HOT!Then she looked at me with this look like she's seen me before. Fazlin:Zam,nie sape sia? Zam:Members aku la,name phin. Fazlin:Mcm kenal sia. Me:BONGOK!Nie raphael laa.Ex ko yg dulu giler2 kan. Then she was like O-M-G! Fazlin:BIE!Asl you aleh2 hot sia? Me:*Takes off helmet and POSE!* Hahaha..Went to meet his friends all.They had drinks already opened.They offered me but I drank like a bit only cos I didnt wanna make fathia MAD but i didnt wanna offend them by not drinking.Then Fazlin was like all close to me.Like hugging me and stuffs.She wasnt drunk so like WTF!?I just kept quiet.Then she looked at me and told me that im still in her heart.Yeah rite.If I was the same old geeky boy would you have said what you said.She kept quiet.Hahaha.Then I didnt wanna upset her cos I felt vibes from other guys that they were jealous.So i told her I was joking around.She smiled.Then she kissed me.I felt like I was in heaven.I enjoyed it.But then I remeberd what Ive been through so I stop my feelings before I fall for her.Tactics damn funny.I imagined if she was a black girl,round as a ball and 50 years older.Hahaha.She then took my phone and asked me who was all these girls in my phone.PLEASE!Your not my gf.But I told her anyway..My friends la.Duhh..It was mus and kinn and badd sia.Lol..Irritating much.Then she wanted to kiss me again..I immediately said "ALAMAK!ADE MSG!"hahaha...Worked like a charm.Hahhaa.I started to like ignore her..*ignore mode*ahahah..Then zam sent me home..Haish..Damn tired.  Today is the saddest by far for me in 2010.Breaking up with badd and ummm.....Shhh.... ranks only 2 and 3..Today was my lil sis bdae..HAPPY 5th BIRTHDAY LIL SIS!I am so sorry I couldnt bring you here tday.I really miss you.All i can doo is pray for your health and safety.I really miss you so much.I cant help but blame myself for you not being here.I know my mom is sad but she's not showing to not make my siblings sad.But now she is asleep so I can cry myself out.I MISS YOU SAYANG!I REALLY DO!You are my angel.I PROMISE YOU ONE DAY,I WILL BE ABLE TO FETCH YOU EVERYDAY!I PROMISE YOU WILL GET EVERYTHING YOU WANT!BY HOOK OR BY CROOK!I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH!ARGH!I FEEL SO GUILTY THAT I DIDNT MEET YOU!WAAAAAAH!IM REALLY SORRY! Day by day,things happen to me that will provoke my tears to come out.Call me a crybaby.I dont give a fuck.But know one thing,THIS crybaby cant punch the daylight out of you,so called "gangster". What is HE trying to tell me?What is HE preparing me for?Is Fazlin,zaza,nicky a way for HIM to make me see how strong I am?I dont know.But whatever HE has prepared for me,I know its HIS plan.I know Im going to HELL if I dont repent now.So all those who know they're going to hell already,see ya there.Cos Im not repenting so soon. =D The mask is what separates me from being normal.
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