Firstly,Sorry to haziq,ahyeen and fafa for hanging up.Stressed up.Mask just not working like it used to.Well..This is the one and only day I really need my mask.Cos Im going to ziqko's chalet later.Tonning there till sun.So no fun if they see me with a frown.Yeah..

The moment I hung up the phone.Anger filled my veins like poison.But the moment I wanted to blow up,I remembered why I was acting all hyper and happy on the phone.Her.I miss her soo much.I can't bear this piercing feeling.It is killing me slowly but surely.Haish

And to my dearest lil "sis":You didn't came to haziq's celebration when he did come for yours.Reason:You were lazy.Everybody was disappointed.Me i bet the most.Then everybody was like talking about you for a sec.I didnt say anything cos I couldn't.You were at fault.You know how painful it was to hear everybody talking about you,the lil sis I love?I hated every moment of it.Then today I hear you calling haziq at night,asking him why we didn't ask all the "others" along.Im like wtf?!Who are you to invite those who you wanna come?I myself don't want them to come but did I say anything?NO!I just replied,"its your chalet.Not mine."Yet there you were irritating haziq.You know how stressed the fuck he is?!We had everything planned out.Seriously.You just blew everything as if it was just a piece of paper in a windy storm.Argh!Now I dont know what to do.Seriously,I dont even feel like going but i don't wanna disappoint those who want me to come.UNLIKE SOMEBODY.Well...Ive said what I wanted.hope you read this.Cos this is the only way you can get the whole truth from me without seeing me blowing my top off.


I swear to god today is just not my day.Well..Something seems to be going my way.Its gonna rain.Guess Im gonna play in the rain later.Ha! Don't worry.I won't get sick.Immune to it thanks to a childhood of not listening to mom and playing in the rain.

The mask is what separates me from being normal.