I am feeling so sad rite now.Darn.And to make things worst,I'm sick.I am sad for the fact that there will not be an "us" in the future.Not even a slim chance.The minute I read your reply to me at your tagboard,my heart sank to a whole new level.I just kept quiet,could'nt utter my screams for help.I didn't know what to say.My heart is aching.Memories of you and me smiling are STILL in my head.The first time we met,was actually a last minute plan.At that day,you started to make this certain guy happy.Seriously,I swore I felt so magical.My world was filled with colours again,the air was fragrant once again,the sky was clear and I felt alive.Now that I know I will never get to have those feelings again,I can't help but fall down again.I really miss you.I want that time back.I want you back.If god were to give me a text rite now saying that I have to exchange my life for just a day with her once agian,being loved again,being hugged again,I wouldn't hesitate for a second.I still wait for your text,your call.Everynight,I go to the reservoir.You ppl wanna know why I do that every single night?I go to the same "pondok" to just sit there and reminiscence those sweet memories of her and me.At that "pondok" we ate,laughed,chatted,played around.I really want those times back.I can't take this pain.This agony.This suffering.No matter who I am with,no matter how much I love that certain someone,NO MATTER ANYTHING,YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY NUMBER ONE IN MY HEART.

The mask is what separates me from being normal.