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Dated : Wednesday, August 4, 2010 The masked man wrote, Just got outta camp.Gotta go back at 11. Lame rite?! I know. But haish,this is ns. Anyway,been staying in for 3 days and BOY! does it feel soo long.But now that I am used to the regimental shit,time's kinda moving. Made a lot of friends. I wanna party this weekend but as usual,Kam is busy.Like fuck la,he is always busy nowadays. Doesn't even have time for his best bro.Well,maybe I'm not his best bro anymore. Texted feyira and asked her out. She and her unsure-ness.As well as the rest of the world.FUCK YOU! Not sure here and there.Have plans here and there.Like when NOBODY was with you all,I was the one no matter how busy I was,I would try my best to HELP you all. And now,you all treat me like crap.You all don't even reply my texts. Thanks a lot.I'm through with you all.I am done being pissed of and/or sad that you guys are treating me like this. So I just will find my own bunch of friends,forget these so called "friends" I have and possibly ignore ANYTHING from my "friends". If you guys were in my position too,I bet you all would have already disown each other. Pfft.Fuck friends. There's no use for them anyways. All they do is contact me when they have NO ONE else to go. Haha. I now see. Imma spare tyre to u all. So fuck friendship. Seriously,I am so freaking pissed. Go to hell!;AND see you guys in there. There's another thing. I have settled what I wanted to do.My personal problems. But what should I do? I want her back but what should I say? I'm too ashamed to have caused her hurt.Too scared that she might not love me anymore.Too...Argh! Fuck! I don't know how to break the news to her. That I miss her dearly.Haish. I just want her back so dearly. I still hold to her pic at my wallet,seeing her everynight,missing her so dearly, I don't wanna repeat a mistake I did long long ago.Haish. Okae.I hope she still misses and loves me too.But it seems she has someone new in her life.Well,sort of.I don't wanna disturb her.I don't wanna bring back any unwanted memories of us and destroy the guy's chances of getting her.I know that sucks cos I have been there a COUPLE of times and I know.So I hope she will text me cos if she doesn't,that means she isn't thinking of me and I will just suffer in silence. Like I always do and always have suffered. The mask is what separates me from being normal.
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